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泰北短宣之行 Mission Trip to Northern Thailand

2011-07-25T16:18:00.000+08:00

《泰北之行》

6月6日，我带着城市人复杂的心境，来到泰北清迈这个地灵人杰的地方。在山上，每天放眼望去，一片青山绿水、蓝天白云，无边无际，让我更能够体会造物主的奇妙。尤其是在第四天，大雨过后，在前往信望爱戒毒所的路上，在宿舍外的山谷间所看到的彩虹，是我一生中所看过的，最完整的一道彩虹。一道七彩的虹霞，在我眼前，从山的那一头一直延伸到我面前的山谷里。当时，我就被这美丽壮观的景象给震慑住了，不禁感叹：主啊，这就是你当初与诺亚、与全人类所立的约，不但不再用洪水毁灭人类，更是无时无刻与我们同在，不管高山或低谷，你都跟随。但愿我也能有这样的信心与毅力，不管主要我去哪里、要我做什么，我也能顺服、跟随。

在山上几天的相处下来，山区中的村民，那单纯的信心，让我感到主爱的伟大，以及自己的小信。每逢聚会结束后的代祷时间，村民们都很踊跃地希望大家为自己祷告，愿意把自己的事交托在主手中。反观自己，花在祷告上的时间，却是那么的少，所用的心，也是值得怀疑的。每天的祷告，似乎变成一种形式，所用的词语虽然优美、有条理，但应该审查的是，当中真正发自内心的赞美、祈求、认罪有多少？

刘家村全村都是基督徒，这样美好的景象，背后是有一段故事的。当年，教会执事刘明星的大哥，因为染上毒瘾，爸爸身为当时刘家村的村长到处奔波，甚至送他到佛寺去住，就是想为他戒掉毒瘾，结果都不成功，最后把他送入一所基督教戒毒所，靠着主爱的力量，成功地把毒瘾戒了，也成为了基督徒。当这位改过自新的儿子带着上帝的恩典回家的时候，这活生生的见证深深地感动了他的家人，结果全家就信了主，应验了“一人信主，全家得救”的应许。村长爸爸也带领全村信主，并修建了刘家村浸信教会。听着这段故事，想象着当时这些景象，我感叹，上帝的爱是何等的奇妙，祂奇妙的作为超乎我们的想象，天国的福音竟然可以传到如此偏远的地方。在山上最后一天，探访各布道所的时候，听到传道人分享到向瑶族传福音的困难时，更想到，是啊，这偏远地区的人，虽然思想简单，生活朴素，但既承受了上帝的救恩，就也有这个责任和义务把这伟大的爱、这大好的消息传下去，便在主日学时，借耶稣撒种的比喻呼吁弟兄姐妹，背起我们的种子，出去撒种，履行耶稣所办不给我们的大使命！不要小看自己，要记得，耶稣曾经不轻看那五饼二鱼，如今，祂也必不轻看我们，只要我们愿意摆上，为祂所用，祂必以祂的恩典与大能来成就。

南大校友在当地的事工，主要是设立和管理幼儿园。这在一些人看来，并不是直接的传福音，甚至会质疑，这样的事工对福音的传播是否有效。但是，从老师的口中了解到，这些幼儿园事工在当地真正成为了主的见证。在泰北山区中，“南大”已经成为一个“金字招牌”，只要是南大办的幼儿园，一定是“品质保证”的。南大校友所办的幼儿园，虽然不是直接传福音，但是在山区开办幼儿园，大大改善了当地人的生活，有系统的幼儿教育，让山上的孩子到了适当年龄要下山升学时，更容易赶上山下教育系统的教学进度。当地居民也知道，幼儿园和教会有紧密的联系，管理幼儿园的，也是基督徒，这无形中就成为了上帝最真实的见证，把基督的爱显明在这山区的居民中。幼儿园教导孩子们祷告、读经，从小就教导他们走在主的道上，在他们幼小的心灵中，撒下美好福音的种子。虽然没有人知道它们什么时候会发芽，或者是否会发芽，但我们相信，这么多种子当中，必有落在好土上，能够茁壮成长、开花结果的，而幼儿园老师，就尽其所能，栽培、灌溉，其余的就交托给主。

在山上的五天中，除了在不同的幼儿园带领儿童事工，我们也在第四天，星期六的时候，坐着祁传道的pick up，四处探访布道所。在探访布道所的时候，令我印象深刻的是湄梦瑶布道所。之所以印象深刻，是因为，它并不是单由一所教会支持的，而是由三所不同地区、不同宗派的教会联合，一同建立起来的。看到这样的一个布道所，令我十分感动，真正看到了“爱中合一”，在主爱中，放下彼此的不同，来为主的福音而奉献。在城市里，不同宗派的教会甚少往来，有的甚至互相攻击、互相排挤，没有做好的见证；而在这泰北偏僻的山区里，却有不同宗派、不同地区的教会，为着同一个缘故、同一个大使命，一同为主建造了这个布道所，为当地的人民带来救恩的福音，也见证了上帝和平的福音，体现主爱真正的意义。

在泰国，学习华文其实非常盛行，当地学生都在两种学校上课，早上在泰文学校上课，晚上就到华文学校学华文。在明利村幼儿园，我们遇到了一位从缅甸过来的老师，杨老师，看到他的委身和付出，让我这个修读中文系的，心中闪过一点“火光”。让原本非常抗拒“教师”这份行业的我，开始认真地思考上帝要我进入中文系的原因，甚至希望能够到那里去教华文。希望这感动能够持久，并经得起考验与“考虑”，认清楚它是否是一时冲动。

这次的泰北之行，让我体会了许多许多，不论是在个人灵命或宣教心志上，都有长进，感谢主。

关注新加坡大选2011有感

2011-05-08T04:42:00.002+08:00

我虽然是马来西亚人，但毕竟在这可爱的狮城生活了将近10年，这里可说是我第二个家。
今年，2011年，能够共襄大选的盛举，实感荣幸。新媒体的传播能力与感染力，甚至让我因为不能投票，而感到些许遗憾。
现在，成绩出来了，一切都已尘埃落定，与广大新加坡人民一同经历这么一次历史性的时刻，有感而发写了一首打油诗，与大家分享分享，应该可以为这次大选作个高度概括性的总结。

《大选2011》
刘上虎山，载誉而归。
詹战碧山，虽败犹荣。
工人大胜，团结饮恨。
人民失守，革新不成。
失杨得陈，人人喊冤。
罪魁祸首：选举制度！

最后，不管你对选举成绩是褒是贬、是喜是忧，就像许文远医生所说的：“Reunite!”
不管选举期间，各政党竞选时如何的针锋相对，如何的角力较劲；甚至家庭、朋友如何地“选边站”，影响和气，选民都不可忘记，自己身为新加坡人的身份，要"Reunite"！Do your very best for Singapore.
Well said by Nicole Seah in her FB note:

"And so my friends, in closing I just want to remind all of you that while the votes have been cast and tallied, the work has just begun.

We know the kind of Singapore we want - we have been talking about it for months now. The time for talk is over; lets get it done."

So...yup, WP's "A Team" and Yaw Shin Leong, you are in, now let actions follow ur passionate and respectable words--let's get it done.

How I wish things in Malaysia are as simple as it is in SG, when it comes to politics (you may beg to differ, but at least it SEEMS simple).

And now, i'm excited for Pilihan Raya Malaysia next year. Thank you, Singapore. =)

望十架

2011-04-19T16:04:00.000+08:00

“不要离开...”
在这受难周里，抽出时间，安静自己，纪念耶稣为我们所受的苦，思想祂的救恩；
真正地定睛仰望，看着十架，看进自己心里的最深处...

看到自己的卑微、自己的不配、自己的罪；看到祂的荣耀、祂的伟大、祂的圣洁。

望十架。

神圣壮严的十架我常抬头仰望

双目如见宝血倾流为我忍受死亡

望十架为你他被钉上

圣羔羊高挂在木头上

留心看救主满脸慈祥

他为你在十架上死亡

望十架将死亡独生子

圣羔羊高挂在木头上

在爱里他伤心而流泪

望十架他死我得自由

不要离开不要离开

他向你伸出钉痕的双手

当仰望他是完全无罪

圣羔羊高挂在木头上

内心里真感受他的爱

付出代价付得心甘情愿

不要离开不要离开

要仰望十字架

看着他是他代你受苦

圣羔羊高挂在木头上

世上的光今囚在黑暗里

在十架上他身心极悲伤

不要离开不要离开

他向你伸出钉痕的双手

不要离开看他受伤肋旁

不要离开看他在十架上

望十架为你他被钉上

望十架看他恩慈的王

不要离开不要离开

望十架

Face The Cross

Upon the cross of Jesus my eye at times can see
The very dying form of One who suffered there for me.

Face the cross, He hangs there in your place.
See the Lamb upon the killing tree.
Stand and look into the Savior’s face
As on the cross, He dies for you and me.

Face the cross and see the dying Son.
See the Lamb upon the killing tree.
See His anguish and His tears of love.
Face the cross, He dies to set us free.

Turn not away, turn not away.
His nail-pierced hands are reaching out to you, to you.

Look upon the One without a sin,.
Spotless Lamb upon the killing tree.
Feel His pain and love from deep within,
So great a price, yet paid so willingly.

Turn not away, turn not away,
Face the cross, face the cross.

Face the One who suffers in your place,
See the Lamb, upon the killing tree.
Light of the world, now clothed in darkness grim
As on the cross, He hangs in agony.

Face the cross and turn not away, turn not away.
His nail-pierced hands are reaching out to you.

Turn not away, behold His wounded side.
Turn not away, behold the crucified.
Face the cross, He hangs there in your place.
Face the cross, and see the King of Grace.
Face the cross, face the cross.

– Words by Herb Fromach, music by David Lantz

耶和华，我随时、即时的帮助！

2010-12-15T02:19:00.000+08:00

今天考了HG803-Technologically Speaking, AHSS的elective, 虽然SU了，但真是害怕会U...从考试7点结束我就觉得只能希望有其他人帮我垫高点，过C大关...

心情虽然郁闷，但后天就要考HC303东南亚华人，没办法，只好孤单地吃了晚餐到李伟南啃notes...一直心情都蛮低落滴...不只担心考试，之后连带其他的担心和焦虑都出来了 = =

直到11点多回到房间（通常我晚上回到房里是不会碰书本/notes的），上网休息吃宵夜了之后，1点半刷牙洗脸，下定决心要早点睡待会儿早点起来再去图书馆...突然想到忘了灵修，就开了12月14日的灵命日粮。

今天要读诗篇43篇，ok~读...突然，在第5节，读到这一句：
“我的心哪，你为何忧闷？为何在我里面烦躁？应当仰望神，因我还要称赞祂。祂是我脸上的光荣（原文作帮助），是我的神。”

哇，感同身受，继续读。可是诗人好像是在责怪上帝，怪怪的...突然，11节的时候，又出现了同一句话！我还以为我读错了，往回看，真的是一模一样的句子！

现在还好，奇妙的来了，我看之后的43篇不会很长，才5节，又好像是42篇的延续，就继续读，怎么知道，在第5节又出现了同样一句话！
“我的心哪，你为何忧闷？为何在我里面烦躁？应当仰望神，因我还要称赞祂。祂是我脸上的光荣（原文作帮助），是我的神。”

我真的傻了，这已经不是第一次上帝借着灵修的经文向我说话（这个感觉其实非常微妙，既惊喜又有点害怕。惊喜当然是因为听到圣灵的声音，更看到上帝的作为；害怕是因为：需要祂“出面”，真的要反省了！>_< 我想这就是“敬畏”的感觉吧！）真的，祂是我的帮助，是我的神，我的心为什么还忧闷？为什么还烦躁？？应当不住仰望那时时看顾着我的神，而不是遇到挫折时自怨自艾，想靠自己或靠别人！

经文中诗人时而埋怨，时而觉悟，完全是基督徒生活中遇到困难时的写照！在经历外在的压力与苦难时，禁不住痛苦的诗人向上帝埋怨呼求，才发现上帝在患难时仍然是他脸上的荣光，依然配得赞美！

而对我来说，真的好像上帝一再地重复质问我：“你为何忧闷？为何烦躁？只因为一个小小的期末考？难道你忘了我的应许？忘了我是你随时的帮助吗？别让这小小的失落掩盖掉我所给你的其他更大更美好的祝福！”

T^T 超感动，超奇妙，感谢主！感谢主随时，也是即时的帮助！Great timing! :D

各位朋友，这不是迷信，这是我的亲身经历，我的见证。(:

P.S. 我不敢想象没有看到这段经文的我明天如何准备303，感谢赞美主！;D

“每一个考试，都要像在考第一张和最后一张一样”

2010-12-12T16:08:00.000+08:00

话说有位叫丘珞君的童鞋就在FB说了标题中这么样的一句话，跟着“招兵买马”去看3D立体的The Chronicles of Narnia: The Voyage of the Dawn Treader...结果...就真的有另外两位疯狂的童鞋一起去了！

本来两位美女说要看2D，因为3D没有字幕，怕看不懂，如果我坚持要看3D就要我翻译，我就说：“那看2D的话你们俩帮我做立体效果咯！” xD 笑翻。

结果定力不是很强的黄小姐就被池小莲说服了~我还以为不是很严重，但由于演员们严重的英国腔，听是好听，但太难懂了！所以整部戏我就一直跟我右手边的池小姐窃窃私语，做“同步翻译”，之后再传给黄小姐，LOL。翻译+解释的时候我还一直注意身边或身后有没有传来“啧啧啧”的声音 =s，看个电影都很忙一下。。。（而且其实有些部分我也不是很懂~=P 不过重点都在啦，我可是受过文学批评训练的，抓重点可不是盖的厚...）

说到文学批评，我们这三个有幸在关老师“门下”修读文学批评与文化理论的大学生，沉浸在各种理论的海洋里整整一个学期之后，考完试出来，还真是哭笑不得。看完电影之后完全是在感叹电影的结构啊...意识形态啊...电影之前的广告中的后现代象征啊...多过简单地审视电影的好坏...真不知道是要高兴还是伤心。当然可见我们学到了很多，但另一方面又好像失去了原本“简单的幸福”（当然这里要看你怎么定义“幸福”了~是沉浸在假想世界里是幸福，还是跳脱出来，批判它是幸福？oh my, 又来了。）我们对于后现代和文化的讨论甚至还延续到第二天...在fairprice...我们看到了...

拼贴！！！！

超夸张的，我们仨站在那里呆了有大概5秒，“拼贴”这两个字才突然从我口中爆发出来。再次笑翻。农历新年在明年二月eh！这还真是有劳福禄寿三位老人家了呢！圣诞节还没过就把他们“请”来罚站，还站在Daiso圣诞树旁。真是，现在的人们应该没有想过这几样东西放在一起到底搭不搭吧...整个是格格不入。不止不止，还有还有...

不知道各位看不看得清楚，这个圣诞树吊饰其实长得很像农历新年一些家庭会挂在外面的“旺梨”吊饰或者“春”字吊饰，如果由它上头往下看其实是个十字形的。难以想象竟然换个形状改个颜色就变成了圣诞装饰。看起来有点别扭，是圣诞装饰又好像有点新年气息，很微妙的感觉，有兴趣的可以去Jurong Point的NTUC fairprice Xtra看看它，也顺便找找看“圣诞福禄寿”~

这些东西好像都是第一次看到，又或者是因为上了关老师的课对各种文化现象的触角变敏锐了，这可真是不得而知，难以查考了，但我希望是后者 (:

完美的一天^^

2010-11-26T23:42:00.000+08:00

《边界》组与关老师！

A picture speaks a thousand words~话是这么说，但我还是要写多一点 xP

今天真的是超开心！

超感谢美丽的关老师这个学期的教导~真的是让我见识到文学批评的多种面向和各种角度，也让我觉得她真的是深不可测、高不可攀...各种隐晦难懂的理论她都懂，super impressed。

正式封她为我短短的21年人生中遇到过的才貌双全兼冰山美人 number 1！！（老师如果看到这篇博文请不要质问我美的定义...我招架不住，纯属肺腑之言...）

当然也要谢谢洁莹和泽龙，我们的努力真的是没有白费，这是我第一次做presentation做得那么成功 *抽泣* T^T...

老师的“我觉得同学做得真是太好了，我觉得没有什么需要补充的”，“同学的报告为我们的课划上了完美的句点”和经典的“老怀安慰”，区区几句话，就让我觉得：够了，这个学期，真的，这样就......够了！（真的是，写到我都要哭了）

（在这里写下这些真的没有想炫耀或什么的意思，希望各位在看的看官们体谅......小的只是想分享喜悦...如此而已^^|||，走在路上遇到我拜托手下留情、口下留人，别打我/挖苦我~~）

今天有了这好的开始，一整天都是好心情~~

在上老大的课的时候，听着老大解释各种理论，尝试去明白的时候，突然有一种非常微妙的感觉。觉得，这里真的是自己应该在的地方：中文系。大学就应该读这个嘛！完全想象不了自己在大学做数学题啊。。。物理题啊。。。能够在大学修读中文系，应该是我一生做得最对的其中一个决定！

真的非常感恩自己可以修读自己有兴趣的科系！看着身边其他科系的朋友有的为了assignment苦恼，因为stress而崩溃，反观自己虽然有赶报告、有stress的时候却总是很开心，真的只有向上帝感恩~

所以，

超爱南大中文系！

还有这个学期跟一群可爱的“AM中人”上课，非常不一样，很有家的feel~^^

所以，

谢谢各位有拿HC360和213的am中year3~这个学期有了你们，让我的校园生活不一样！:D

在读这个post的你是否也是中文系的呢？是也好，不是也罢，大家在这学期的最后关头一起加油吧！！(:

人

2010-11-25T00:38:00.000+08:00

人就是喜欢有事没事搞一些烟雾弹、小动作，把事情弄得看起来比真实情形复杂，有种“惟恐天下不乱”的嫌疑。

为什么？

因为有人就是喜欢有事没事看别人，搞一些烟雾弹、小动作，把事情弄得看起来比真实情形复杂，有种“惟恐天下不乱”的嫌疑。

可能可以说，是 Supply & Demand 嘛。

可是，看清楚，把事情复杂化的是谁？惟恐天下不乱的是谁？

P.S. 曹格的《丑角》很好听！！！唱到我心坎儿里啦！T^T

读《“苹果”的滋味》有感

2010-11-04T00:01:00.002+08:00

这学期拿了凯德老大的课，在南大的三年来，拿老大的课，从来没有失望过，总是会有很意外的收获。

刚过的HC360欧美华文文学的辅导课，我们细读了一篇台湾留美作家平路的一篇小说：《“苹果”的滋味》。其中平路竟然引用了《圣经》中的一个经节，让我对这篇小说非常有兴趣，暂时找不到在线读得版本...=( 但是很想跟大家分享我在discussion board上写的感想~~

（借这个机会让我的blog复活！:P）

我和许多同学相同，看了平路这一篇《“苹果”的滋味》之后，就会套入现代主义的框架中得出[以反讽的手法，先描写“当如芸遇到苹果时”的美好，来带出“科技害人”。]的结论。

细读后觉得，小说中并没有明显的“反讽”意味。我发觉我们大家之所以读出反讽，是因为我们还有人性。

这“人性”所赋予我们的价值观和经验告诉我们：“苹果”（冷冰冰的电脑）是不会像文中那样地维持人与人之间的关系的。（如果你告诉一个五岁小孩“苹果可以带给你幸福”这样的观念，看他会不会觉得你在说反话。）

所以正如老大所解读的，小说中的确带出种种事物的两面性，而且叙述者/作者并不加上任何的道德价值(moral value)的评价、或批判这件事是对或错。小说通篇几乎是以平铺直叙、理所当然的叙述方式描述如芸通过“苹果”，得到夫妻关系的救赎，甚至生命的救赎的过程。

《圣经》的互文与“苹果”的隐喻:

小说中用到了《圣经》中的经节：（路加福音11章9-10节也有相同经文）
马太福音7章7节
“你们祈求，就给你们。寻找，就寻见。叩门，就给你们开门。”
这是圣经所记耶稣曾经说过的话。他在呼吁正在听他讲道的人向他们所相信的上帝祈求，因为“你们祈求，就给你们。寻找，就寻见。叩门，就给你们开门”。

所以，这句话里面其实是有一个隐没在文字之后的对象：向谁祈求？寻找什么？叩谁的门？《圣经》中当然是指基督徒所相信的独一真神上帝。

然而，小说中呢？

我们看到，平路虽然引用《圣经》中的经文，但并不赋予任何解释或借着这个情节“传教”。

小说中如芸“叩门”、“开门”后找到的、见到的，不是原本《圣经》互文中的“上帝”，而是--“苹果”。

作者借着这个互文，丰富了如芸“寻获苹果”的过程、赋予了“苹果”新的隐喻：“苹果”=上帝。

小说中，系统似乎取代了原本上帝、神、宗教在人中间的位置：填补如芸心灵空虚、修复他与叁白夫妻间的关系，而且，那可以回应“叩门”这动作而“开门”的，似乎真的是“苹果”，文中提到：“因为系统的回馈率是百分之百，所以他们在没有空虚的时候！”

小说中也有提到电脑“活着”（与印象中的冷冰冰不同）。

这种两面性的现代主义式文本对于“人性”是非常恐怖且带威胁性的，因为其中没有批判、对错的观念，也没有很强烈的反讽意味，似乎以两种相对的方式解读它也行得通。

试想，假若科幻电影、小说中科技超越人类，机械人的时代到来，这篇《“苹果”的滋味》是否可能成为“苹果教”的“圣经”？

不知哪里听来的一个比喻（网络上相传是从Blaise Pascal的语录中derive的，他除了是科学家，也是个天主教哲学家）：“There is a God shaped vacuum in the heart of every man which cannot be filled by any created thing, but only by God, the Creator, made known through Jesus”。所以，小说中的“苹果”其实就占据了如芸、叁白和其他“苹果”用户心中那“God shaped vacuum”，成为他们的主宰、他们的上帝。

反观现在，全球许多人为了“苹果”而疯狂，还没摸清楚第三代iPhone的功能就在排队等要着要成为第一个买到第四代iPhone的人，不就已经在这“苹果”的系统和意识形态下找到了文中提到的“幸福与快乐”吗？地铁、巴士和食堂里任何地方，人人一机在手，不就形成了“自给自足的系统”吗？所以平路在1993年写的这篇小说，不是反讽！是个寓言！（希望各位看官读得出我最后四个字的反讽 =x）

P.S. 惨，写到好长，我这学期第一次有感而发来此发言，估计是想法累计太多太久了，一次发出，敬请见谅~~
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Yay~~以上就是全文啦！很长哦？不过真的是有感而发啊！我觉得真是有“感动”，想借着这个机会，让人们更了解这小说，更了解基督教、了解耶稣、了解上帝！一举超多得！

真不希望哪一天看到我的朋友/同学兴高采烈地在电视机前欢呼呐喊，接受访问的时候，不是因为得了诺贝尔文学/大专文学奖，而是“成为第一位买到‘苹果’产品的人”。

偶然再看到篇首Apple “Think Different”的标语，使用期是1997-2002，明显是为了抗衡Microsoft微软对科技市场的垄断，呼吁大家“Think Different”，其后有着“Buy Apple, not Microsoft”的潜台词。但到了今天，我们是否应该也要再次“Think Different”，走出“苹果”/科技对我们的捆绑呢？

青宣：不容错过的营会

2010-08-10T02:46:00.000+08:00

        年初，当干事告诉我关于青年宣道大会的讯息时，我就非常感兴趣。一方面因为我很喜欢台湾这个地方，自从上一次2007年去过之后，就想再去。另一方面，听说这是三年一度的营会，主办方这一届又特别邀请海外学员共襄盛举，机会难得，错过这次，下次的身份就不再一样。我喜欢认识新朋友，所以，到台湾参加营会，既可以认识台湾的基督徒大专生，又能为自己的灵命带来复兴，所以青宣对我来说，是非去不可！

        到国外参加基督教的聚会，这是我的第一次。感谢主让我有这个机会，参加这么大型的营会。从小就在教会长大的我，“宣教”这个名词并不陌生，但“宣道”的字义我就不是很了解了。从青宣的宣传和干事口中知道营会是关于基督徒传福音的使命。虽然类似的主题的营会和讲道我都曾经参加过、听过，但青宣七天的一系列讲座下来，我不但不觉得闷，还能感觉到心中一团福音的火正被一点一点地挑旺。

        原来，“宣道”的涵义，比“宣教”来得更广泛。“宣教”主要是指在外地或外国传福音的事工，好像“宣教士”；“宣道”的意思就比较广，它指的是如何在我们的生活中活出基督徒的样式，履行主所托付给我们的使命：“所以，你们要去，使万民作我的门徒，奉父、子、圣灵的名给他们施洗”（太28：19）。不管是成为宣教士，到海外宣教，或奉献自己，全时间服事，又或者是有一份职业，但同时在职场上坚守基督徒的本分、传福音、作主的见证，这些都是“宣道”。所以，今年第十一届青宣的主题：“无界国度，跨界人生”，就是要我们看清天国的“无界”，不分种族、不分阶级，把福音广传。同时在自己的人生中“跨界”，跨出自己的“舒适圈”（comfort zone），把福音带给身边的人，活出宣道的人生。

        青宣主办单位除了邀请讲员带领我们从圣经中查考宣道的重要性以外，还安排了许多曾经参加过青宣的学员回来作见证。他们都是在历届青宣决志将自己献给主，全时间为主作宣道的工作。有的到海外宣教，有的在台湾国内的学生事工或其他福音机构服事。每一位弟兄姐妹在分享的时候，都是那么的充满热忱，所经历的也非常振奋人心。看到主在他们生命中所作的，提醒了我主爱是多么的伟大，更让我察觉自己是多么的不配得，不禁问：我又能做什么来回报主的恩典？

        心志上的建立固然重要，但如果对现况不了解，胸中所怀的大志很有可能会被残酷的现实给粉碎。于是大会安排了许多资深的宣教士、牧者以及宣教机构的同工，以研讨会的方式对目前普世宣道所遇到的挑战进行非常实际的分析。此外，讲员们也探讨未来世界社会、经济、教育、文化等领域的趋势，让我们对世界这一片大禾场有更深的认识，用更好的方法把福音广传。其中两天还有“宣道博览会”，让学员对台湾国内外的宣教机构和神学院有更深的了解，提供些服事方向。在一系列的讲座中，我看到在这末后的世代，人心已经被快速的生活步伐和纸醉金迷的社会价值观所掏空，忙得属灵的眼睛都瞎了，看不见自己灵魂的需要，这对基督徒来说是很大的挑战。然而，这些不利的环境因素并没有削弱我心中对传福音的负担，反而让我更加肯定自己的身份和使命：“身为基督徒，就要传福音！”

        马太福音5章13-16节清楚地说到，基督徒是世上的盐、世上的光，盐要能调味、保鲜；光要照亮别人、驱走黑暗。但是，如果我们不让别人知道自己是基督徒，如何在这世上作光作盐？其中一位讲员Lindsay Brown（曾任IFES国际总干事15年，2006年卸任，现为洛桑福音运动国际执行长）提到，我们应该“入世”但不“属世”。基督徒要进入失丧的人群中，才能把那有别于他人的、丰盛的生命活出来给世人看，好像光照亮黑暗、盐分深入食物保鲜一样。当然，如何在大环境的趋势下中流砥柱，坚守信仰，这对基督徒是很大的挑战。但我们一定要在逆境中仰望主，靠着主的力量胜过一切困难与试探，因为“盐若失了味，怎能叫他再咸呢？”只有坚守主道，才能领人归主！

        大会的最后一晚，Lindsay Brown对将近2000名学员进行呼召，让我们对前六天所听到的信息做出回应，对自己基督徒的人生负责，可选择决志全职事奉、带职事奉或继续等候主。讲员明确的指示让我知道这是个重大的决定，不能因为一时的感动所造成的冲动做决定，而应该理性地寻求神。结果我选择了继续等候主、寻求祂的旨意。
七天的青宣，是我参加过的营会当中最长的，也是我最有感触、得着最多的一次。经验丰富的讲员，借着圣经让我看到上帝对普世宣教的重视，让我正视自己身为基督徒所背负的宣道使命；宣教士的分享，让我看到传福音的困难，预备自己；小组里的台湾同伴，将来可以成为我属灵的代祷伙伴，甚至同工。如此一举多得的营会，怎么能不参加呢？

曲

2010-08-02T01:15:00.000+08:00

人生中有许多的小插曲

什么时候我才能找到一首主题曲

而又是什么时候

我

才能摇身成为

指挥

重新演绎其中所有的曲子

谱出幸福的

乐章

《谈恋爱》——谈“恋爱”

2010-05-12T00:49:00.006+08:00

身边有些比我小好多岁的朋友，还在初中，动不动就谈他们所谓的“恋爱”，分分合合，合合分分。现在世俗的恋爱观大可以四个字概括：“玩玩而已”。是啊，玩玩而已，何必那么认真？可是可笑可悲的是，往往有人却没有口中说的这么潇洒。“合合”的时候是真的很好玩啦，还可以玩到“呵呵呵”，可是分手的时候，真的可以像所说的那样“不认真”吗？可以的话，那最好，当然这“最好”是以分手是否会影响当下的生活与活动而论，对身心发展与往后感情的影响又是另外一回事，好坏与否，因人而异。而“潇洒分手，不影响生活”这一点之“好”，是无可否认的。但是如果不但不能这么潇洒，反而还陷下去，无法自拔，那怎么办？何苦？千金难买早知道，无论如何是回不到从前的那个自我了...

当这些“小”朋友来倾诉时，我都忍不住会说他们几句，与其还蛮严厉的。可是之后想想，我以前何尝不是这样？所以，如何从一段失败的感情中站起来是很重要的...（废话）至于如何从走出感情的阴霾，迎向生活的阳光呢？没有什么是比“时间”更有效的了。可是，流行歌曲都这么唱：“也许时间是一种解药，也是我现在正服下的毒药”，这句话也没错，时间是否是解药，要看你怎么用。万物都有毒嘛，用得当就是解药，使用不当当然要变成毒药咯~如果你是用你宝贵的时间来想那个他/她，缅怀你与他/她那美好的过去，在夜深人静的时候，看着对方送你的信物兀自掉泪或苦笑，那真的是再白痴不过了。当然我不奢望你在分手后只伤心3秒钟就生龙活虎（希望在读着这个的你不会，不然你真的是禽兽 =x），但是伤心总要有个期限！给自己几天静一静，要哭就哭个够，找姐妹淘或兄弟帮倾诉，什么都好（但注意不要在这时候让有心之人趁虚而入 =.=），噼哩啪啦啦啪哩噼之后，好了，请恢复原来的生活，正常进出平日常去的交际场所，找些自己喜欢的事来做，填补之前围起来用来约会的时间，总之让自己忙得停不下来，这是最好的方法...

在读的你如果是基督徒，就有另外一个更简单快捷的疗法：读经祷告。找些相关的书来看，充实自己这一方面的知识，把自己的信仰与生活结合，不只可以加速痊愈，更能借这个机会拉近你与上帝的关系。通过书籍中理性的分析与圣经中正确恋爱观的引导，思考上一段感情为什么会失败。

（写了那么多，连我都觉得我自己啰嗦，写得好像都毫无章法，乱七八糟，但是这都是我的想法，希望有人会看...没有看的话不要紧，看一下结论的就好，自己觉得还写得不错）

以上都是我的个人经历与搜集身边朋友意见自己过滤分析过得出的心得...当然也只是一点点而已，还有很多写不完...现在回想起几年前比较不懂事的时候，动不动就说“爱”这个字，爱来~爱去，爱来~爱去，结果现在长大了变得好像不敢再爱。何苦！？可是无论如何，我想没有人可以逃避叛逆期、青春期所引起的这一连串反应。然而，如果真的可以避免的话，也不见得是件好事。因为，这种所谓的“爱”，毕竟还是一种发自内心的情感。虽然可能是最幼稚、最白痴、最愚蠢、最不知所谓、最莫名其妙的，但它也是每个人这一生中最纯真、最浪漫、最可爱、最不顾一切、最轰轰烈烈的一个时期、一段感情。

心情

2010-05-04T01:03:00.004+08:00

好好好好好好好好好好好。。。久没有写了~~

其实也不是没有东西写。只是很懒惰 =s...或许也是因为学会藏在心里，就算想到了一些什么也迅速地把它掩埋，用一些根本不需要忙的东西来占据自己的心思，使自己不去想它。

刚过去的两个礼拜就不需要找东西来忙咯~单单温习考试都已经忙得不可开交了~感谢主这个学期下来，各科的课基本上都还上得蛮愉快的。有例外的...就...开心就好啦，哈哈哈，win-win嘛，双赢，双赢。看在他新来的份上。。。再观察看看咯~（可是又不是第一次教书=.=...算了，反正以后也尽量不拿他的课 =x 应该也不会是我有兴趣的。）

有得忙还好，一闲下来就胡思乱想。=.=...虽然说还有一科还没考完。。。但HT102真的是靠平时的啦！...又有字典可以靠wor，mou man tai ke la!（广东话）我现在怕的是等下自信心爆棚，阴沟里翻船...=s 所以明天要开始继续看讲义了~看看老师平时都强调些什么~~

回到刚才说到的胡思乱想。

想什么？唉，怎么说呢.........很难说清楚。其实我也不知道自己在想什么，不知道自己要干嘛，很想大声地问自己：“你到底想怎样！？”

我清楚知道的是，现在，已经不一样了，但是为什么不一样？从怎样变成怎样？将来又会怎么样？如果是这样，那要怎样？如果是那样，那又该怎么办？许多许多的问题，我都无法回答，也不能做什么，只有时间才能回答我的问题，也只有上帝知道这些问题的答案，我只有顺服。

我唯一担心的是，我变了，会伤害到别人。=/ 希望你会懂。虽然我自己都不懂。=(

我有一种被逼长大的感觉。dislike.

离开的日子越来越近，我的心也越来越静；静如平静的湖面，如层层的涟漪平息后。可是，水呢？哎呀，怎么了，好浓的雾。

原来，水都干了，我，又迷失了，在一片白茫茫中。

离别的日子越来越近，我的心也越来越静；静得我不知所措，静得你猜，不透。

~A Technicolour Dream~

2010-03-12T12:11:00.005+08:00

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Hi peeps! I'm back to blog again!!!!

and this is to publicise my Hall's Combined Cultural Concert!

i promise to blog more if u readers and friends come support me! xP

A Technicolour Dream

Date: 21st March 2010

Time: 8pm-10pm

Ticket Price: $10

Venue: Youth Musician Society

54 Waterloo Street

Singapore 187953

Performances include:

Jam Band
Xing and Strum
Dance
Choir - Acapella
Productions
Classical Trio (piano, violin, cello)
Magic Show~

I'll be performing with my Jam Band~~ =))))))))))))))

Come and support me and the other cultural groups plssssssssssssssssssssssssss~~~~~~~~~~~

want tix contact me!

Thanks a million!~~

美丽的错误

2010-01-29T03:53:00.010+08:00

《美丽的错误》

　　我打江南走过
　　那等在季节里的容颜如莲花的开落

　　东风不来，三月的柳絮不飞
　　你底心如小小寂寞的城
　　恰若青石的街道向晚
　　音不响，三月的春帷不揭
　　你底心是小小的窗扉紧掩

　　我达达的马蹄是美丽的错误
　　我不是归人，是个过客……

幸好诗中的过客自己知道自己不是归人，如果过客不知好歹，自以为是归人的话，最后碰了一鼻子灰。

那，才尴尬呢。

而这样的话，美丽的错误，也就不再是那达达的马蹄声、那偶然经过的过客；

而是那过客不小心瞥到的那不小心飘动的柳絮、不经意揭开的春帷。

删信息之我见

2010-01-18T22:53:00.004+08:00

我没有删信息的习惯。

可是我觉得，看了信息就删是个好习惯...看了就过了。不会想留着。

可是我就是喜欢留信息...

留啊留的，常常留到 Inbox 都满了，sms 都被挡在外头，才甘愿“回顾”之前的信息，而且也不是全删哦！还要一个一个看过...哪一个可以删，哪一个还要留...可能跟我优柔寡断的性格有关吧。

觉得一则则的信息就好像一个个的文本，当下在写那一封信息时的心情、感觉，在按下发送键时，就好像随着那一则信息出去了，永远不再回来。信息还可能在 "sent messages" 中找到，感觉，没有 "sent feelings" folder 来储存。这么看来，又可能和我多愁善感的性格有关。。。

有时因为 inbox 交通阻塞，没收到朋友的 sms，他们就会说：

“inbox又满了啊？？（我的朋友都很了解我。）收这么多sms干嘛？你又不会再开来看...”

“哎哟，我会wor.”

是啊，我是会把以前的信息打开来看的人。。。某人说这和我些许自恋的倾向有关（注意，真的只是“些许自恋”罢了哦，不要怀疑），但我觉得这不是主要的原因（是，我承认这是部分原因）。我觉得爱存信息、爱“温习”旧信息的习惯和我缺乏安全感有比较大的关系。

害怕以后没有得再这样地和人聊天，所以把信息留着；

害怕忘记之前他/她说过什么，所以把信息留着；

害怕有一天和这个跟我互通信息聊天的人关系不再一样、一切成为过去，

所以把信息留着。

留着信息不知道哪一天爽爽拿来看一下，不管看了以后会 EMO 还是会“作莫”，如果那个时候连那么几封信息都没有，那不是很惨！？囧.......所以咯，要留信息。。。

（我可爱的 K770i 从上个星期就一直提醒我 “Messages 95% full!”）

看了不删，之后还重看；

inbox 满了，handphone 出 warning 出到不要出，

还是要一个一个信息看过，看可不可以删 =.=|||

我应该是一个很很很很很很很狠念旧的人。

惨了啦，我还是不想删信息。

又懒惰从最最最旧的信息“审查”起。

ROAR.

风

2010-01-14T14:54:00.002+08:00

今天的风，好大。

从我来南大到现在，好像没有经历过这么样的一个大风天。。。可能是之前的房间太封闭的关系吧。

搬上四楼，窗外的景色变得更多姿多彩，眼界好像也开阔了。空气变得新鲜得多。不过，这么大风还是第一次。

刚好在这么一个艳阳高照，凉风徐徐的一天，我洗衣了！哇哈哈！希望“午后较迟时分”不会有雷阵雨~（最近老是早上大太阳，下午“天黑黑”=.=...）

难得的大风，竟然想起放风筝。

最后一次放风筝，应该是很小的时候吧，大概是小学的时候。家附近有一座小山丘，小时候爸爸常带我到那里玩，还在那里种树呢！可是不知从什么时候开始，那里就被围起来，不能随便进去了。现在，满山丘的树，虽然不知道哪一棵是我和爸爸种的，但每每驾车经过，都会望着山丘，仿佛看到满山的回忆。

还记得当年跟着爸爸妈妈去巴西古当的风筝节，看那许许多多来自不同国家的超级大风筝！当时的情景，现在的记忆中已一片模糊，但当时一定是很壮观的！突然有股冲动想再去参观参观，感受在山头上放风筝、吹大风的感觉。

放风筝，

这个很久没做的动作。

感觉上，

放上去的不只是风筝。

更可以把你的烦恼、忧愁、担忧和心情，随着越升越高的风筝，放上去。

放风筝时，风筝被风吹得鼓鼓的，好像在和你拔河。

风筝

一直升，

一直升。

等到，

风停了，

风筝

慢慢，

地下降到回手里时，又是原来那，

轻轻的风筝。

eh?

仔细想想，

我也不是很久没放风筝啊。

每当我们祷告的时候，不就好像在放风筝吗？

把重担“放上去”给上帝，收回轻省的心、喜乐的灵。

Bible Camp aftermath

2010-01-08T03:51:00.002+08:00

hohoho, it's the last night of bible camp, 8 min to 4am and here i am blogging.

really learnt alot in the camp, again, really an refreshing experience spritually.

great, inspiring speakers who made me think alot more abt my spiritual well-being and reflect on what i've done, or what i've not done, and even what i MAY do, if i'm not careful of what is ahead of me and who to follow.

Last night, but i hope it's not the last chance.

and may the sense of refreshment and the "gan dong"ness stays in me throughout, even after bible camp! not like previous camps where always the campers' 灵命 would reach a peak during the camp and after that, still go back to all the 老我s...

Help me, Lord!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

为什么

2009-12-29T15:55:00.002+08:00

为什么她们会这么像？

为什么连过程都这么像？

甚至连感觉也一样。

性格、气质、甚至是才华，都很像，简直可以说是一模一样。

而我，也还是一样——不堪一击。

唯一不同的是，

这次，

我是“后到”的。

太像了 =(

going crazy

2009-12-09T00:52:00.002+08:00

several things are driving me crazy now:

1) the haunting past

2) mission trip prep

3) the fact that it's holiday

ya! it's holiday! but, so many things to do, and holiday is so short! roar~~ how to meet soooooo many groups of frens in one short holiday???

God, help me! grant me strength~~~ >_<

it'll all be fine. =)))))))))))))))))))))))))

stop it. u dun need it, yet.

"The Truth" vs "The Thought"

2009-11-17T17:21:00.005+08:00

sometimes, it just makes me wonder, are we too persistent in wanting to know the "truth"? even when we know that it is not going to turn out as what we wanted or what we "thought" it was, making ppl sad, hurt, frustrated, angry.

think abt it.

in short, ignorance is really bliss, i think this statement holds true all the time.

Unbelievable. Incredible. Simply Fantastic.

2009-11-16T15:40:00.004+08:00

Brandon Jennings from Milwaukee Bucks

http://www.nba.com/playerfile/brandon_jennings/index.html

"Jennings scored 55 points, breaking Abdul-Jabbar's franchise rookie record, to lead the Milwaukee Bucks to a come-from-behind 129-125 victory Saturday over the Golden State Warriors.

Jennings poured in 29 points in the third quarter, then 16 in the fourth to hold off the Warriors and become only the third Bucks player to score more than 50. The last to do it was Michael Redd, who set the franchise record with 57 points against Utah on Nov. 11, 2006."

http://sports.espn.go.com/nba/recap?gameId=291114015

crazy shit. he's onli a ROOKIE!

and guess wat? he's onli twenty this year! born on 23th sep 1989.

gosh, same age as me, and scoring 55 points in NBA in his Rookie year, getting an early career high.

what m i doing here???

ok i shall get back to my revision.

URGH.

BAH!

精神衰弱

2009-11-07T12:59:00.002+08:00

ytd after my run, went pantry to make milo.

on my way out, this guy was coming in the pantry, din see him cos it was a blind spot at the turning corner, i nearly bumped into him~but instead, i got a shock =.= a serious shock. so shocked that i jumped and my hand shook and the milo spilled out a little, and it's HOT WATER...nvr add cold water, so i was like:"OH SHIT!!!!! OUCH!" in my mind and "SSSSSSSSSSSS" out loud (if u noe wat i mean). then i think the guy was shocked by my reaction, he was like:"oh my god." when he saw my milo spilled over my hand. GG. he apologized, and despite the pain, i still said:"it's ok it's ok."

Geez, cant believe this.

i really v easily got shocked, think it's getting from bad to worse. watch movie with suspense is a confirmed shocker for me. at home watching tv halfway mum tapped me from the back oso will got shocked. think i really m 精神衰弱, like wat mum said.

Totally GG-fied.

Demi Lovato - Don't Forget

2009-11-02T23:04:00.003+08:00

I feel a need to update my blog, but somehow i just dunno wat to write, cos i think writing blog will make me more emo, and think more abt stuff that i shouldn't be thinking now.

So i think i'll jst share an MV here, with its lyrics, cos it's quite nice...came over it while i wondering aimlessly on youtube, but mainly was cos of watching NBA highlights and top-tens la....hahahaha...

btw 《不能说的秘密》 is just "oh so nice", watched 2nd time on channel U last night. but it was tiring explaining to mum abt the twist and all... @.@

emo stuff.

emo lyrics.

Did you forget
That I was even alive
Did you forget
Everything we ever had
Did you forget
Did you forget
About me

Did you regret (did you regret)
Ever standing by my side
Did you forget (did you forget)
What we were feeling inside
Now I'm left to forget
About us

{CHORUS}
But somewhere we went wrong
We were once so strong
Our love is like a song
You can't forget it

So now I guess
This is where we have to stand
Did you regret
Ever holding my hand
Never again
Please don't forget
Don't forget

We had it all
We were just about to fall
Even more in love
Than we were before
I won't forget
I won't forget
About us

{CHORUS}
But somewhere we went wrong
We were once so strong
Our love is like a song
You can't forget it

{CHORUS}
Somewhere we went wrong
We were once so strong
Our love is like a song
You can't forget it
At all

And at last
All the pictures have been burned
And all the past
Is just a lesson that we've learned
I won't forget
Please don't forget us

Somewhere we went wrong
Our love is like a song
But you won't sing along
You've forgotten
About us

Don't forget

so...did u forget? pls don't =)

not i dowan to write...is...so wat if i wrote

2009-09-15T16:12:00.002+08:00

越来越没有动力写blog了。

不知道是成熟了，不需要这种attention，还是自己的事越来越多放在心里，还是怎样。。。现在是怎样！？作莫酱！？我也不懂。

最近跟以前BRMC的朋友吃饭，竟然说到我用华文写blog...=.= 其实我已经很久没有用华文写了咯。。。现在写起来突然觉得很奇怪。

新的学期实在忙，时间过得夸张的快，真的是如白驹过隙。。。现在已经WEEK SIX了！siao liao siao liao...还没有开始复习呢！Hall和CCF又有忙不完的东西！噢买尬！！！！！

创作更不用说，什么灵感都没有，emo的时候也是累到。。。根本没有闲情写什么东。

而且，写了又有什么用？都没有帮助，也没有人会欣赏。。。而问题还是存在。。。=(

哦，对了，最近上映恐怖片，《西湖七月半》，要不要看？？哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈。

很想再写些东西，

但是

好像

怎
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写

不

出

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来。

=(

suaku

2009-09-04T22:41:00.003+08:00

as wat the title suggest, ytd was my first time to G2000.

and i spent A BOMB! (may not be a bomb to some ppl, but to me it IS!)

oh man...i've not tell my mum yet. although i've told her that i would be expensive, but din noe it would be THIS expensive. =S

roar, hope this INVESTMENT is really worth it.

but i should do like wat i've said: shall not think abt it anymore since i've bought it le.

oh well. now the last thing is...hope it looks good on me,

hey! i trust ur taste ok! better dun let me down!

=D

=/

2009-08-22T00:21:00.002+08:00

This sux.

What the hell m i doing???

=(

i guess it's GG liao la...shall start to mug to get my CGPA up, before thinking abt anything else.

ROAR.

I just missed a chance to do my first paid gig! $250 split between 4 ppl leh! =(((((((((((((( it clashes with the JB churches combined choir camp... >.<

oh man oh man! and i'm supposed to slp early! going back home later at 9 plus in the morning~

finally revived my blog! long time no see!

hope i'll update more frequently!

hope things get better! pls!

nite!

"You are promoted to Second Year in Semester 1, Academic Year 2009-2010."

2009-05-22T00:21:00.002+08:00

ok, the wait is over, and it's final.

not as bad as i expected, but actually, wat i was always telling other ppl abt is actually not wat i REALLY expected. and now, although it is better than wat i THOUGHT i was expecting, i dun feel happy, or lucky, or anything.

i'm sad.

i feel lousy.

haix.

i hate to use profanity and i always try to control myself when i feel like using it.

and now is the time i have a strong urge to use it. hais. so sorry.

i just dunno why i cant get at least an A- for percussion. i feel lousy. i dno where's the problem. and i dun see the problem.

hais, no A or A- for Y1S2...='(

feel so guilty towards HK and TW literature. tot can get good grades.

lower by 0.24.

how many -0.24 can i afford?

haix.

i really dowan to MUG leh, it's so not my style, MAN.

glad to have u there and yes God will make a way...sorry i just cant say tt i'm ok and be back to normal just yet. maybe i would be better after a good night sleep. yay.

tml will be a brand new day. =)

AHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HAHAHA!

2009-05-07T19:54:00.002+08:00

oh my! oh my! xD

The 7pm Korean show on Channel U used Wonder Girls' "Tell Me" as background music! so surprised and so cool! HAHAHA! Brightened up my day!

=P

update~not really recent though.

2009-05-03T23:27:00.005+08:00

hah, quite long nvr update...hmmmm nothing much to write abt though...holiday now...nua-ing at home in msia...dun feel like going anywhere..but tml have to go sg for CCF FOC meeting...at SMU somemore, hahaha, quite cool eh, nvr go SMU before~ can go see see, woots.

ahah! finally gotten the pic from hui rong, now can show and tell liao!

super long ago, before i have my first exam on thurs, 16th april, on that monday itself, 13th april, wahaha, i super brave, no need study and go accompany xiao rong (=x) to Chinese Heritage Centre for her Chinese course interview, (and yay! she got NTU's offer letter le!) after that still go out and watch movie LOL. went Vivo, to watch Handsome Suit, stupid JP got no suitable timing, so went Vivo after waited the GV at JP opened at 1045, ah, ya, we were THAT early. anw...that's besides the point...the show's funny ahahaha but this is not my post is going to be abt.

it's abt this:me and hui rong found this sign super amusing...dno why, maybe we were abit high, watching movie on a weekday, 3days before my exams..

it was hui rong who found the pic weird first..i noticed her staring at the signs so i asked "wat u staring at?" then she told me that she tot the top right hand pic is showing a pregnant woman, and holding another child, and i'm like, "xD u think x-ray meh! HAHAHAHAHA. she's holding the baby la!" but at 2nd look, it really looks like pregnant LOL.. tt was funny enuff, and due to the extreme boredom we experienced on the mrt, i decided to start misinterpret the signs...it's supposed to be pregnant lady, mother with children, handicap with clutches, old ppl with tongkat. let's see how i 错误解读...

THIS SEAT IS RESERVED FOR THEM:
First (top left hand sign): teenage mum =x (cos of the ponytail, so weird, obviously it's a pregnant woman la, cannot be a guy with a beer belly rite?? the ponytail is redundant, i cant help but to think it is to show that she's young..so it should be referring to teenage mums...=x)

Second (top right hand sign): just as how hui rong interpreted...pregnant lady with another child...really deserves the seat...

Thrid (bottom left hand sign): someone with mcdonald's coffee/tea cup. (HEY! IT REALLY LOOKS LIKE LA! dun believe tml u go eat breakfast at macs, cos tt day i just ate and i'm like:"eh? tt one is like wat i drank just now! so we must give up the seats to ppl who are holding macs cups, cos they can easily spill them all over the cabin if they are standing!")

Fourth (bottom right hand sign): LOL, this is the most hilarious one. two misinterpretations...mine cant be said here...can try to misinterpret the tongkat urself. i shall say hui rong's, hers is funny enuff..she said:"eh! how come this one like 尿急(urgently need to go toilet) liddat!" xD super funny la! but really la if someone 尿急 till others can notice and who is doing wat the pic is showing ah...really must give up the seat to him/her la...if not ah...not good for bladder sia..at least sit down easier to LOON! xD

so, conclusion...SBS TRANSIT REALLY CARES.

how to answer questions with Lee Hom's songs.

2009-04-25T04:06:00.003+08:00

Using only song names from ONE ARTIST, cleverly answer these questions. Try not to repeat a song title. It's a lot harder than you think.

Pick Your Artist: Lee Hom

Are you male or female: ~~华人万岁（oops, it's not asking abt race? =x）~~
male, and i wont go thailand to “改变自己”, nuff said.

Describe yourself: 唯一, i'm special and unique! u wont find another person who is exactly like me! 8D

How do you feel about yourself: 盖世英雄。MUAHAHAHAHAHA. xD

Describe where you currently live: 在那遥远的地方, called boonlay, got one uni called NTU, in hall of residence 11, is where i'm currently living in.

If you could go anywhere, where would you go: 如果有“另一个天堂”, besides the one up there...i wanna go.

Your favorite form of transportation: 不降落的滑翔翼 ;)

Your best friend is: 哥儿们，nuff said.

Your favorite color is: "嘿吼"！xD this is so funny.

What's the weather like: the weather is like 不可思议电台，unbelievably HOT!

Favorite time of day: 星期六的深夜

If your life was a tv show, what would it be called: Can You Feel My World. (sweeeeeet.)

What is life to you: 脚本, script. life is like a play, so we all are just following the script, either written by ourselves, or others.

What is the best advice you have to give: -.- wat ques is this. 我完全没有任何理由理你。(really! it's a song!)

If you could change your name, what would it be: “我就喜欢”我的名字，i wont change my name.

Your favorite food is: 女朋友煮的。;P

Thought for the Day: "What was I thinking?" (HAHA, apt.)

How I would like to die: 不着地 ;) interesting way to die.

My soul's present condition: “我要”回家！

My motto: 放开你的心 :D super apt!

haha, quite a fun thing to do, thanks to kwang ying for tagging me in her note on facebook, ahahaha.

yay exam's finally over on thurs! going back home tml! and driving back here to bring my stuff back! super excited abt the trip, hope i dun get lost on my way here! xD

tt's all folks! nites! :)

浑浑噩噩

2009-04-14T23:36:00.006+08:00

yay...see, my cat is sooooooo cute. but it's gone now :'( long gone, dno go where liaos.

i'm not going to talk abt my cat, but to talk abt me.

浑浑噩噩, a phrase so literal that looking at the 4 words itself looks like the situation it is used to describe: a situation where one has no goal, no aim, not motivated, not knowing anything.

to put it simple, just like my dear cat above. so cute rite? a picture really speaks a thousand words.

so the 2nd day of my exam week is literally like my dear cat above. really 浑浑噩噩...woke up at 1030, on com, stare at it, till 1130, then fell asleep, then woke up when ah yow came back from gym, nvr get up, fell back to sleep. after that woke up at 2 plus, go makan, come back, 3 plus, stare at com, try to study HC203, have 王维 and 孟浩然 in mind and imagining the 山水 they described in their 田园山水诗, then fell asleep again. wake up, wah, 8pm liaos. called ah yow five times to order dinner but din pick up, then dowan to trouble him so went to da bao at can 11.

finally revived by Kai De LaoDa's HC110, have to read thru abit before tml's discussion, so YES, finally my 浑浑噩噩ness has ended.

it's not abt whether it has ended, it's abt, for how long.

SENSE OF URGENCY, PLS COME!

P.S. RAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! stupid core subjects of CHIN/1 sem2.

复活节

2009-04-12T02:05:00.004+08:00

道成肉身，为人舍命，
遍地黑暗，爱之真空；
死而复活，被接升天，
审判之日，必要再来。

“因他受的刑罚，我们得平安；因他受的鞭伤，我们得医治。”（赛53: 5b）

"the chastisement of our peace was on Him; and with His stripes we ourselves are healed." (Isaiah 53:5b)

“天使对妇女说：「不要害怕！我知道你们是寻找那钉十字架的耶稣。他不在这里，照他所说的，已经复活了。你们来看安放主的地方。快去告诉他的门徒，说他从死里复活了，并且在你们以先往加利利去，在那里你们要见他。看哪，我已经告诉你们了。」”（太28: 5-7）

"And the angel answered and said to the women, Do not fear, for I know that you seek Jesus who was crucified. He is not here, for He has risen, as He said. Come, see the place where the Lord lay. And go quickly and tell His disciples that He has risen from the dead. And, behold, He goes before you into Galilee. There you shall see Him. Lo, I have told you." (Matthew 28: 5-7)

1900多年的今天，耶稣受难的第三天。
耶稣曾说他能拆毁圣殿，并在3天内重建。人人都说他疯了。
他们不知道，主耶稣说的圣殿，就是他自己。
耶稣死后，第三天从死里复活，出死入生，战胜死亡。

昨晚，唐崇荣牧师的受难节布道会，庆幸没有被下雨天使人慵懒的天气影响，获益匪浅。
我和立衡也见识到了唐牧师的严肃和威严，还不准一些迟到的人进来呢。不禁捏了一把冷汗，幸好没有迟到。
令我印象最深的一段话是：当主耶稣被钉在十字架上的时候，他经历的是“爱的真空”。他得不到人的爱，得不到人的谅解，忍受鞭伤和侮辱；他得不到天父上帝的爱，天父离弃了他。然而，在十字架上的他对那些伤害他的人仍报以无私的爱，还向天父说：“父啊！赦免他们；因为他们所做的，他们不晓得。”

主耶稣在爱的真空下，担当了我们的罪，为我们死在十架上。
他的爱，是无条件的爱。
世人根本不配得上帝如此的爱，本来就是人自作孽，背弃神，行神所不喜悦的事，神本来是不需要拯救我们的。但只因为，他爱我们。

去年参加了新心音乐事工举办的百人诗班，其中一首由郑浩贤牧师作词作曲的歌《无缘无故的爱》，歌词写出了主耶稣无私的爱。郑牧师更在歌谱前面写了这么一段话：

“曾有人云：‘这世界没有无缘无故的爱，也没有无缘无故的关怀。’
是的，惟有造天地的主宰，才能给予这一种无条件的爱。
因为耶稣基督在我们还做醉人的时候，就为我们死在十字架上，神永远不变的爱就向我们显明出来。”

歌词写得很好，非常适合复活节听，来思想主的爱。。。
原本要google这首歌的歌词，放上来，可是竟然找不到 =s...不过，让我有很意外的收获。
当初刚拿到这份歌谱的时候，就对这个题目感到疑惑，甚至有点好笑。无缘无故的爱，虽然没错，但我们很少这样讲，通常都是说“无条件的爱”、“无私的爱”等等。说无缘无故的爱。。还是第一次听到，当时我还开玩笑说不如叫作“莫名其妙的爱”好了。
刚才google的时候，我找到原因了，原来“伟大”的毛泽东aka毛主席aka毛爷爷有这么一句名言：“世上没有无缘无故的爱，也没有无缘无故的恨。”哇，我茅塞顿开，郑牧师可能就是根据这句话改了一改，才有灵感的。。。
最近常常有机会传福音，也常听人家怎么传福音，现在再看回这首歌的歌词、诗歌，不禁觉得“无缘无故的爱”比“无条件的爱”、“无私的爱”形容得更贴切。
既然google不到，我就打出来，分享分享~

《无缘无故的爱》
词/曲：郑浩贤
编：余远淳
你那无缘无故的爱，充满我的心灵；
你那无缘无故的关怀，温暖我的胸怀，
我曾渴望得到人的爱，却是一场虚空；
你那无穷无尽，不改变的爱，不舍不弃来寻找我。

救主为我离天家，为我受痛苦鞭伤；
为我死在十架上，向我表明神无比的爱。

你那无缘无故的爱，助我信靠接受；
让我无怨无悔医生跟随你，聆听你爱的声音。

就这么短短几句，道出了上帝那超乎世界标准、超乎人理性知识的爱。short and sweet. 编曲更是不得了，跟诗班一起唱的时候非常享受，听也很好听。。。有兴趣可以msn我跟我拿。

在耶稣最需要上帝的时候，上帝离弃了他，为什么？为了拯救世人，脱离罪恶的捆绑，逃避罪恶的工价。

复活节快乐。=)

耶稣受难日

2009-04-10T16:46:00.003+08:00

神爱世人，甚至将他的独生子赐给他们，叫一切信他的，不至灭亡，反得永生。因为神差他的儿子降世，不是要定世人的罪（或作：审判世人；下同），乃是要叫世人因他得救。
（约3: 17）

For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life. For God sent not his Son into the world to condemn the world; but that the world through him might be saved.
(John 3:16-17)

2009年前的第一个圣诞节，耶稣降生在世上；
1900多年前的今天，耶稣为了世人的罪，被钉死在十字架上，成了代罪羔羊。

耶稣被钉十字架时，圣经说到，“从午正到申初，遍地都黑暗了”（可15: 33）

Passion of The Christ 里面，天也黑了，好像还有狂风暴雨。

（在写上一段的时候，我被雷声吓到了。如果是手写的就看得出被吓到。）

现在才5点，天黑得好像7点多，雨下得好像真的是有一个大盆从天上往下倾倒一般。

2009年4月10日，今天是耶稣受难日。3点多的时候还好像夏天，蝉叫声不绝于耳，慢起渐快的节奏好像计时炸弹，转眼间就变成现在的狂风暴雨。

1900多年前的今天，耶稣被钉十字架时的黑暗，应该比现在的更戏剧性、更震撼吧？不过，应该差不了多少，在惊诧的程度上。

1900多年前，遍地黑暗，大地震动，幔子裂开，耶稣成为了人们回转到上帝那里的桥梁。

1900多年后，没有地震，没有幔子，只有倾盆大雨，雷电交加。

恐怖的雷雨，好像是在提醒人们，不要把受难日当成普通的公共假日，而是借这个机会，从忙碌的生活中喘一口气。

而这一口气，
不是给读不完的书；
不是给做不完的功课；
不是给好久不见的朋友，而是，
给耶稣，
给主，
在这个难得的假日，思想主的恩典。

不要忘记，

我们本是不配。

（写完的时候，天也亮了。）

太可怕了，从来没有这么强烈的感觉。

2009-03-29T02:46:00.004+08:00

I 'HEAR' GOD, BUT I'M NOT CRAZY.
IT IS JUST ABIT, SCARY.

你们应该作行道的人，不要但作听道的人，自己欺骗自己；因为人若只作听道的人，不作行道的人，他就像一个人对着镜子看自己本来的面貌，看过走开以后，马上就忘记自己的样子。
[雅一22-24]

Prove yourselves doers of the word, and not merely hearers who delude themselves. For if anyone is a hearer of the word and not a doer, he is like a man who looks at his natural face in a mirror; for once he has looked at himself and gone away, he has immediately forgotten what kind of person he was.
[James 1:22-24]

oh my...this is so scary.

AND i'm so sorry ='(

唯有详细看那使人自由的全备的律法，并且时常遵守的人，他不是听了就忘记，而是实行出来，就必因自己所做的蒙福。[雅一25]

amen.

旱天雷

2009-03-28T12:02:00.001+08:00

oh my oh my!
现在真的是在打名符其实的旱天雷！大太阳下有雷声！超夸张！

希望我不要也打旱天雷才好。。。=/

revived.

2009-03-28T00:57:00.002+08:00

Dear Blog,

Cant believe that i've stopped updating you for more than two months...tot i would resume blogging on my bday, but i didnt...so sorry for being lazy. Since Good Friday is nearing, i shall revive you~

Ta-da!

Look at how good I am! not only revived you, but oso renovated you! Gave you a whole new look.

but i'm so emo now, i'm not in a high spirit since morning :(...

NTUCO post-TR'09 celebration had brightened up my day a bit. perc peeps are just full of fun. love y'all~

jus talked to "the listener", she is kinda in a same situation as me too, but she's a bit better...i feel much better after talking to her...instead of asking me "did u study?"/"why liddat?"/"then how?", she just talked abt wat she gonna do, how she handle it and wat her frens' advices are...

thanks~ =)

ok! time to slp! so late alr! wanted to slp early and wake up early to study! >.<
1...2...3....4....5....6....ok!
9am it shall be! 6 hrs of slp should be enuff!

tt's all for now, dear blog, enjoy the new layout and gadgets to play with~!

房·心

2009-01-19T01:53:00.009+08:00

凌乱的房空虚的心
因懒惰而凌乱因不解而空虚
整齐好遥远爱情好陌生
收了又收扫了又扫听了又听谈了又谈
想维持却仍然变乱以为懂但其实不懂
“颓废？不会啊，这叫随性。” “单身？很好啊，多么自由。”

灰尘的肆虐寂寞的突袭
害虫的骚扰忧郁的伏击
怎么受得了如何挡得住
都是自欺都是自欺

收拾、清理？“懒惰！” 恋爱、拍拖？“不敢...”
矛盾

HAPPY BOXING DAY!! ARBISH!~

2008-12-27T01:56:00.002+08:00

26th dec
lalalala....wah...woke up super late this morning, 11 plus!!!! INCREDIBLE...

so proud of myself that i was not awaken by the legendary "dai ga jeh morning call" this morning...lol, or rather, she din use her full force today, i think.

oh man...last night fell asleep reading 九把刀's book: 等一个人咖啡. it was soooo hot slping with the light at bed on=.=...i think i was sweating abit. zzz.

went 中华三院李嘉诚中学 for practice today. the school is nice...and the hall is...like a hall lo, normal, nothing outstanding...

met joanna and 阿良, two HK percussionists, and i'm going to perform with them~muahaha...playing 小鼓 for 红花遍地开...

after that i played basketball there, lol. feel so good to sweat. but my skills rusty liaos-.-...sianz. was wearing a hoodie so i tried to pose to the camera, imitating 球魁 in 篮球火, versus chea hao who is 东方翔, lol lol, but the picture taken is not nice..=((( sianzzzz LOL.

after that came back to hotel...nua a while and watch tv. came across 翡翠台 showing digimon, IN CANTONESE!!!!!!!!! LOL! it sounds so funny!! hahahahaha...but the dubbing is good, it was done with emotions, lol lol. the new version digimons is cool! hahaha...

then we went some normal 茶餐厅 for dinner...and Chris came to join us after dinner, and so we went 沙田's New Town Hall. it's a shopping centre, v big, nice to shop, nice to see...took many pictures of the beautiful chrstmas lightings and deco, and of cos handsome and beautiful ppl from percussion section =D.

then we head back for hotel at around 11, as yen nee set a curfew at 12am today, say wat sylvia and her got things to talk to us, we have to be in our room..zzz...and so we head back for supper at roadside stall and desserts from 许留山 near our hotel. then when we got back on time for the meeting, they nvr come, until now=.=...WTH.

tml (27th dec) is the 2nd performance! it's gonna be a cool day yo! ok! time to slp! i have to wake up early sia! have to gather at 845! =S

ciao!

oh! and i'm so sad that the guzheng girl din join us for practice today!! =(((((((((((((((( plsssss dun tell me that she is not participating in the group performance!!!!!!! SUPER SAD!!!!!!!!!!!

SIGHS...moody.. T_T

in Hong Kong!!!!

2008-12-26T01:55:00.002+08:00

yoyoyo! super long nvr blog..i'm blogging in the lobby of the tsuen wan hotel that i'm staying in!~~~...

reached HK on 22nd, went temple street and 女人街 on first day and 2nd day rehearsal, 24th had a performance with the HK Baptist University and now i just came back from supper not long ago...

sighs sighs...hai ling lost her wallet when we were buying 鱼蛋 and 臭豆腐...=(((((((( now chea hao and Chris our dear hongkong exchange student who part time as our tour guide today is with her reporting this to the police.

besides this sad incident...today was GREAT!!!! xD

ytd was christmas eve...so we went countdown after our performance!!!

ok, more specifically, we din go out on time for the countdown...we only went out of our hotel at 11 plus..zzz...and when we reached tsim sha tsui MTR station, BIIIIG crowd of ppl like streaming into the station from outside, all just finished counting down...lol. but it was a great experiece!~~to see MANY streets of tsim sha tsui were blocked..ppl strolling on mainroad...and the crowd is just, WOW, man...i've never seen such crowds before.

(ooh, just got a news from yik cai, hai ling's wallet is sent back to the hotel cos someone found the wallet and saw the room card! how great, now waiting for her to come back see if it's really her wallet)

and so we walked from tsim sha tsui station to "the avenue of stars" with the crowds...and again shocked by the EVEN BIGGER crowd at the HK cultural center..walao ppl are like picnic-ing there la! SUPER on! and it's like 1 plus in the morning?? HK ppl are real fun man...and the scenery at the place was FABULOUS..

met up with ke shan and see you there, ya, my fren's name is See You, lol. and YES, then we went to 兰桂芳, a street full of pubs, bars and clubs, for clubbers!! woots!

(oh man...dammit la...just a wallet lost then cause so many unnecessary things...long and super unreasonable and illogical story, dowan to tell here. in short, hai ling has gotten her wallet back..)

yay...so after nua-ing around from stations to stations, we reached lan kwai fong at 3 plus, and on ly mei feng, hai ling and me wanna go clubbing, the rest only wanna drink at a pub... haha, but we still managed to persuade see you and chea hao to go with us! xD

we went to a club called "bulldog", each person 100HKD with TWO free drinks..not bad wor...had a tequila shot and "black den", wa, the black den is SUPERB, man...after the two drinks, we went to the dancefloor and after dancing, i'm totally dizzy, and drunk-.-...

the feeling is not v enjoyable but it really is an experience la...never danced so 尽兴 before, yay! but so sad never noe pretty HK girls...=((((((((((((((((

=x

then we 5 drunk ppl, hai ling, chea hao, ke shan, mei feng and me took MTR from central station, first station of tsuen wan line to the last station, tsuen wan...totally concussed on the way..and the best part is, ke shan vomitted the moment he got out of the station, and some drunken guy from the same train tot he was his fren and patted him on his back, LOL...

slept right at the moment i reached my room, SUPER tired and giddy...really drunk, man...

then it's christmas!!!!
managed to DRAAAAAAGGGG myself up at 9 plus this morning to go breakfast with Chris, our HK fren and perc ppl, with see you and ruiyang to 大屿山...so weird, christmas go see buddha...=.=...see only la..very big and the scenery is v nice...all the mountains..and the view from cable car is great, but it'll be better if it's not so misty or rather, the air is not so pulluted.

after that we met up hai ling at "lai king" MTR station, she was not feeling well and stayed in hotel to slp while we were having fun, then head for "The Peak"!!!!

this is the best part, we had breakfast for dinner, LOL. then we go up The Peak. the view there is fantastic and mesmerizing, and the wind there was FREEZING COLD...took many many fun and nice photos there, WHEE~~~

then we head back to hotel at 11 plus, ate smelly tofu and nice nice de fried food =x...and i cant believe Chris so hates smelly tofu...after that we went for desserts at a cool shop that uses 美人计 to attract customers..ther waitresses are young and REALLY PRETTY!!! =x...had riceballs there, super nice, 6 different flavours, creative, interesting and delicious.

phew, finally finished writing this post...have to go and bathe le! super late alr! tml still wanna go eat dim sum de! xD

oh man, i'm soooooo broke.

ciao!

ownage

2008-11-24T10:30:00.001+08:00

移椅倚桐同赏月
等灯登阁各观书

魏晋时代的骈文，果然是一个字：

强。

乱2首

2008-11-18T21:13:00.007+08:00

怀念过去的年少无知；

幻想未来的一切未知；

抱怨现在的一具腐尸。
____________________

想
归回原始

去掉文明

来
哀悼自己

无奈

“他妈的。”

打仗/打战

2008-11-17T14:39:00.004+08:00

哇劳，在房间里面，隔壁的camp炮声连连，连我的房门都被震到，又参杂机关枪的声音，完全有在打仗的感觉咯，如果刚好在看战争片，像《抢救雷恩大兵》或"Transformers"的话就有3D的效果了。LOL...

hais...我何尝不是应该带着如上战场打仗的心情在准备考试？但是我的心情却比去食堂叫羊肉汤然后aunty跟你讲没有了那种心情还显。。。

完全没有心情读咯。等下还要跟其他一些大一的讨论文本=.=...看来也只能去听别人讲了=x...看咯。。希望可以有一点贡献。。。

突然在iTunes里面找到一首很好听的钢琴曲，很熟悉，可是不知道是在那里听过，也不知道是谁send我的，只知道叫wish，artist署名S.E.N.S...

啦啦啦啦啦啦，这个学期的GPA我看是没眼看了。。。

哇，隔壁又开始打仗了，应该是吃完午餐了咯。又把我的门震了两下，我看迟早会震倒=.=...

啊。。。。。。。无论如何一定要开始读了！不然就会在考场上打战了！

对了，“打战”不是“打仗”，“打仗”不等于“打战”，所以不要把“打仗”讲成“打战”，把“打战”讲成“打仗”。

“打战”是发抖，“打仗”是。。。打仗...(fight in a war la!)...不要再说“那些军人在战场上打战”了！！！！！！！！！！！！”如果上去发抖的话还去干嘛！？每次听到人家用错我都会超pek cek=.=...

记得啊！

干物男

2008-11-12T19:35:00.005+08:00

just changed nickname, and in case u guys are wondering wat's 干物男...here u go...

干物男

「干物男」，也就是像香菇、干贝等干巴巴的男人。干物男是已经放弃恋爱，凡事都说：「这样最轻松」的年轻男人，假日时几乎都在家里睡觉，穿着高中时代的体育服装，歪斜躺在家里喝啤酒看棒球转播、DVD等
　　【特征行为】
1．痴迷于某事物如动漫、电玩、书籍，某人，如歌星、网络名人，某事情如手工制作，烹调等等，此种痴迷也允许是突发性的，突然间迷恋上，不能自拔。
2．需要依赖电脑，长时间不能用电脑将会很要命，甚至陷入抓狂状态。
3．依赖网络，干什么都想上网，即使上网觉得没事做，也要经常挂在网上。
4．有时候会对上班/上学，产生累的想法，想逃避，但却没有办法。
5．作息时间不稳定，不太愿意遵守一个死板的规整作息时间。
6．极少出门，与其出门，不如呆在家里，总之就是懒得动。即使是接到朋友的出门邀请，也会花些时间考虑要不要去。
7．不喜欢接触陌生人，在现实生活中，如果没有摸清对方的脾气和个性，就不太愿意与他做深入的交流，频繁接触陌生人会有不自然的感觉。
8．性格多少有两面性，在不喜欢的事情面前，会掩饰自己内心想法，得过且过，有时候感觉自己有双重性格。
9．有收藏癖，最少喜欢收藏一种或者多种物品，并乐此不疲。
10．体型相对标准型而言偏胖或是偏瘦。
11．是独行侠或单身贵族。
12．喜欢写日志或日记，或用相片记录自己的生活。
13．有喜欢上虚拟人物的倾向，例如漫画里面的角色，书本里面的角色等非现实生活中的人物。
14．或多或少都会被人评论自己有点闷骚。
15．其他，例如：
　　追求懒散闲适生活
　　随便站在厨房吃东西
　　最近只有爬楼梯让自己心跳
　　忘记东西不脱鞋而直接以脚尖踩地到房间拿
　　一个人也敢上热闹的餐厅吃饭
干物男心理特征：（1）.生活圈子狭小，具有孤芳自赏的性格，个性十足；（2）心理变态，人格扭曲。

ok, err...for the 心理变态 part, i beg to differ-.-...got eyes to see la huh...i'm NOT....zzz....rahs...

so, conclusion,

我是干物男

please do it, guys!

2008-11-10T16:11:00.002+08:00

bah...no mood, nothing to do, so...dig out old thing and combine with its evil twin...heiheihei...

My Johari Window:
http://kevan.org/johari?name=LohserLuoJun

and....

My NOHARI Window:
http://kevan.org/nohari?name=luojun+aka+lohser

in case u're wondering...

The Johari Window was invented by Joseph Luft and Harrington Ingham in the 1950s as a model for mapping personality awareness. By describing yourself from a fixed list of adjectives, then asking your friends and colleagues to describe you from the same list, a grid of overlap and difference can be built up.

and...

The Nohari Window is a challenging inversion of the Johari Window, using antonyms of the original words. By describing your failings from a fixed list of adjectives, then asking your friends and colleagues to describe you from the same list, a grid of perceived and unrecognised weaknesses can be explored.

HAH! pls pls do it, my dear readers...=D

终于，疯了

2008-11-03T15:46:00.004+08:00

终于写完了《不敢和妳相拥》的报告。。。
可是，我觉得朝没有安全感，超不开心的。
跟我写完了HC201的期末作业完全不同。。。

感觉好像刚刚写完一坨大便...

sighs...算了啦，死就死，反正都交了...应该有交到吧！她不会那么狠毒吧？=x...lol 开玩笑的...

快要疯了，刚刚做完报告去开hotmail inbox，看到某个chain email，题目“touch story”，开来一看，华文的，一开始就跟我来：

他，忙于工作，每天早出晚归。

她，结婚后就辞去工作，每天呆在家里。

他，拼命工作，努力赚钱，为的是两人可以有个更好的未来。

她，辞去工作，全职顾家，为的是守护两人幸福的现在。

他很爱她，她很爱他。

他很老实，她对他在外面工作很放心，绝对信任他。

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=.=
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哇！靠！
单人旁、女字旁，单人旁、女字旁，单人旁、女字旁，单人旁、女字旁，单人旁、女字旁，单人旁、女字旁！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！

你！妳！他！她！全部去死吧！！！！！！！！！

~夏~ ^^

2008-11-02T15:32:00.005+08:00

今天，跟星期五一样，蝉叫声覆盖过从我的speaker和subwoofer中播出的歌，今天是五月天的《如烟》，前天是《你不是真正的快乐》。oooh...发现《如烟》也很好听，有时间再去找歌词。

蝉，又在开演唱会了。很有电视剧和动画中夏天的感觉~ 阳光普照，凉风徐徐，温暖但不闷热^^...第一次有这种感觉...很好很轻松的感觉。当然也因为可以趁这个机会洗衣！可以晒得很干很干!~会有很“阳光”的味道！x)

感觉很像小孩，什么都不用管，报告也开始有进展，前景好象没有这么漆黑一片，好像有点亮光了。=)...

是去了教会的关系吗？唉。。。和上帝的关系好像越来越远了。灵修也荒废了很久...今天听到的见证，最深刻的一句话就是：
“跟上帝的关系好，跟人的关系才会好...”。。。

哇！才刚刚说有夏天的感觉，这个post还没写完就暗了下来，还打了一声闷雷！[-.-|||]....

今天就开始吧！恢复灵修生活！重新建立与上帝的关系！

yay! 前进吧！

空

2008-11-02T01:15:00.004+08:00

唉。。。坐在电脑前，写报告的速度简直比蜗牛还慢。

本来以为有很多东西写，可是看来没这么简单。。。2000字没这么容易写出来。

郁闷。

就上网，偶然发现有《画皮》，就看了。。。一个晚上就没了。好悲的结局，唉，可怜又可爱的狐妖（周迅）。

唉。。。到底是什么？

好空虚啊。

MSN 的窗口开了又关，发现，找不到可以谈心的人。真的没有，会听我啰嗦、会听我心事、会给我安慰、会给我鼓励、会给我依赖、会给我依靠、会让我放得下面子撒娇的人在哪里？

还是，根本不曾有这种人在我生命中？以前没有，现在，也没有。

悲哀

差不多应该去睡了。。。明天起不来去聚会就惨了。。。X.x

报告报告。。。。。。。

后悔··担忧··羡慕··怀疑

何苦？私·想

2008-10-31T02:58:00.008+08:00

totally owning, mayday ROX. and yong an, u ROCK tooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!! thanks for the enlightenment!!!!!!!!!! =D

我不是真正的快乐MV

surprise surprise! “洁儿” 郭采诗 is in the MV!!!!!!!!!!
o.O 采诗!？OH MY, i tot of HC201!! yay! tt means i'm in revision mode! HOHO
终于，我算是传达了我的心意。。。那又怎样呢？

还有，

你到底抱着什么心态？安什么心啊？不就是心里不平衡，想要她觉得内疚？觉得困扰？什么心态!？就算本来你没有这个意思，你觉得人家听了会怎样？根本没有用的话，你倒就是要她知道。结果？搞得尴尬收场，高兴了？=(

如果有一天，妳有了“他”，我可是会很伤心的。

一句废话。

我不是真正的快乐。

什么心态。=.=

你（我）不是真正的快乐

2008-10-29T01:56:00.007+08:00

《你不是真正的快乐》--五月天

人群中哭着你只想变成透明的颜色
你再也不会梦或痛或心动了
你已经决定了你已经决定了

你静静忍着紧紧把昨天在拳心握着
而回忆越是甜就是越伤人
越是在手心留下密密麻麻深深切切的刀割
　　
你不是真正的快乐你的笑只是你穿的保护色
你决定不恨了也决定不爱了
把你的灵魂挂在永远锁上的躯壳
　　　
这世界笑了于是你合群的一起笑了
当生存是规则不是你的选择
于是你含着眼泪飘飘荡荡跌跌撞撞地走着
　　
你不是真正的快乐你的笑只是你穿的保护色
你决定不恨了也决定不爱了
把你的灵魂挂在永远锁上的躯壳
　　
你不是真正的快乐你的伤从不肯完全的愈合
我站在你左侧却像隔着银河
难道就真的抱着遗憾一直到老了然后再后悔着
　　
你不是真正的快乐你的笑只是你穿的保护色
你决定不恨了也决定不爱了
把你的灵魂挂在永远锁上的躯壳
　　
你不是真正的快乐你的伤从不肯完全的愈合
我站在你左侧却像隔着银河
难道就真的抱着遗憾一直到老了然后才后悔著
　　
你知道真正的快乐你应该脱下你穿的保护色
为什么失去了还要被惩罚呢
能不能就让配角全部结束在此刻重新开始活着

歌词中的“你”都换成“我”，就完全对了，真的。完全是我心里想的。真的是唱进我心里了。。。

another classic

2008-10-28T15:19:00.003+08:00

LOVELY FISH or FISHY LOVE?

HAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
niiiiiiiiiiccccccceeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

nvr MADE it purposely oh! just use chopsticks to split the fish onli!.....xD

classic

2008-10-28T01:04:00.004+08:00

my dear roommate lih hern, aka NIU NIU, said a classic phrase today. he said my table v messy, ok, i admit, then he continued:"有文人的桌子的感觉！"

o.O totally stunned and LOL! seriously!

ok readers! lemme show u how a writer's table look like!

haha! those who wanna be writer/journalist/poet or anything related to literature can try to reach the stage of my table ya! so u at least got the FEEL of a writer even if u're not one!

xD this is just classic.

不想睡·sleepless night.

2008-10-24T05:07:00.004+08:00

wow! 3 more hours to go to HC201 lecture! u can do it! luo jun! dun slp!

did the facebook quiz alvin sent me when i'm super sian doing the essay...and the result!

You are WHITE CHOCOLATE!

White chocolate because you’re both regal and velvety smooth. You speak, walk, and talk a good game (GG?! o.O) and people are rewarded with your smooth and inviting persona. (=D) Some find you to be a rare gem among the landscape of sweets, almost like the hidden treasure that only a select few know about. ( xD) People may not necessarily crave you ALL the time, but when they are in the mood for white chocolate, they will damn near sell an organ for a taste of you. Or donate an organ. A big organ ;) (MUAHAHAHAHAHA!)

wahahas~i love white choc! although i prefer dark choc~=P...fine...i just love chocs, k! xD

RAHS, changed my title last min. i'm really the king of last min sia.

so now my title for HC201 论文 is..............................

*drumroll*

从《周易》看赋比兴，论诗之起源

and i'm still working on it.

aaaaaaaaarrrrrrrggggggghhhhhhhhh.

oh! nearly forgot! yay! gotten back my 1st assignment for HC102, i got 89/100!!!!!!!!!!! xD

call me last-min king.

call me.

惆怅

2008-10-22T01:15:00.002+08:00

很久没有吃SUPER的杯杯面了。。。刚刚，泡了从楼上走下来的时候，嗅到那熟悉的塑料杯加热后的味道，不知怎得便想起以前在少年团每年的营会时，吃宵夜的情景。。。那熟悉的味道，熟悉的地方，熟悉的感觉。。。

可是

再也回不到从前了。

年轻，是多么的好啊。

SIANZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ GG

2008-10-15T02:15:00.003+08:00

wah...HW101C assignment3 due the day after tml!! and i have not started a single word on it, which is a 500 words essay! GG.

HC201 academic essay is due next fri!! and i have not started a single word on it, which is a 2000 words essay!!!!!! ZOMG. double GG. GG+GG=GGGG

RAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS...

stupid《篮球火》, addicted to it alr..zzz.

DIE.

DYING.

DEAD.

summary of this week

2008-10-10T12:30:00.003+08:00

hah...friday again...weekend again...i can really feel that time is flying...=/...

exams are coming in a month's time! 3 assignments at hand! one due next thurs! X.x...

gonna stay in hall again this weekend...to do homework. wow, wat a grand reason. but also partly because i'm lazy to go back laaaarrrsss...hais, but i really hope i can get the HW101C english essay assignment done by this weekend lors...then i can get started on my HC201 and HC101 assignments!~

I SHALL NOT BE 堕落/颓废 THIS WEEKEND! Q(OoO)/

lol, talked to jinghang tt day and realise i had all my weeknights occupied with music activities!
=D so cool and fun!

Mon and Tues were Chinese Orchestra.
it was not bad, except that it's a bit bored on mon cos teacher was teaching the others the basics of drumset playing, really basic, so...yea...it was bored. but learnt something new though, can use it as warm-up. but i still think i wasted quite alot of time tt day, could've came back hall early to finish my HC101 《倾城之恋》分析-.-...REGRET. OH YA! and meat ball u're so funny! xD
Tues' CO was da zu, and i think it's quite sianz...cos perc v slack, no chance to show off...BAH. in short, sianz.

Wed was JamBand! woots!
was looking forward to it, but ya...i agree with u, esmond, it's kinda disappointing...cos we've gotten practically nothing done, but keep browing random songs and not jamming..sianzzzzzzz...
bad start, but the better ones are coming, i hope. IT HAS TO BE BETTER.
and AAAHHHHHHHH I SO WANT A DOUBLE PEDAL! AND NEW NICE DRUMSET FOR HALL XI! GONNA GO HUNT FOR IT ON SUNDAY!!~
in short, quite bad.

Thurs was JnB...it was not bad...better than wat i expected...in short, not bad, could be better.

Fri! today! slacking day! again! had McD McGriddles with sausage for lunch!~ hohoho i'm so dead, man, think i'm gonna put on weight! soooooooo many McD meals this week! i'm so addicted to McD...GG

AAAAAAAHHHHH! cant slack alr! must start doing assignments! this weekend has to be THE LEGENDARY PIA WEEKEND!

IT HAS TO BE.

true anot?

2008-10-05T21:42:00.007+08:00

AQUARIUS - The Sweetheart

Optimistic and honest. Sweet personality. Very independent. Inventive and intelligent. Friendly and loyal. Can seem unemotional. Can be a bit rebellious. Very stubborn, but original and unique Attractive on the inside and out. Eccentric personality.
true?
aah...i think it's quite true...=x...
not tt i bu yao lian lo...but just think it's true..
how u readers think?? tag and tell me! x)

zzz...《倾城之恋》is sooooooooo long! =( haent finished sia, and oso dunno how to find the concept of "再现" in it! ARGH! tues eed to hand in a 500 words analysis on it somemore! GG, man.

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHH again!!!!!!!!!!!!

JAMBAND IS NOT PERFORMING FOR HALLOWEEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! =(((((((((((((((((((((((

there goes my plan of wearing joey jordison's mask to perform le, wanted to DIY it de!

ANYONE GOING "ART FRIEND"??? SOMEONE PLS HELP ME BUY WHITE MASK!

OR AT LEAST SOMEONE PEI ME AND BRING ME GO LEHS... =( FEEL SUPER SIAN GOING ALONE. BLAH!..

hmmm fren A says this style doesnt suit me...i'm more "friendly" type o.O....another says no such long hair no feel...so....I GUESS I NEED A WIG!..or maybe i just wear my pullover jacket la...i think it's enuff! but i think wig is better! LOL! but i dun think easy to find that kind of wig lo, and it would be quite ex. $$$$$$$

AAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I SO WANT TT MASK.

ciao.

日有所思，夜有所梦（？）
梦是心头想（？？）
才下眉头，却上心头（？？？）

P.S. my end-semester assignment of HC201 is "《周易》对《诗经》写作手法的影响", i kinda love the topic, hope i can handle and finish it by 24th oct!

damn nice

2008-10-02T00:38:00.003+08:00

“人生而静，天之性也。
感于物而动，性之欲也。
夫既有欲矣，则不能无思；
既有思矣，则不能无言；
既有言矣，则言之不能尽，
而发于咨嗟咏叹者，必有自然之音响节奏而不能已焉；
此诗之所以作也。”
--朱熹《诗集传·序》

wa wa wa wa wa wa this phrase is super nice.

random.

tok tok qiang~

2008-09-15T02:52:00.003+08:00

hais...问世间情为何物？？？...

真是的，这么多人失恋...难道和这恼人的天气有关？？哎哟，全天下心碎的人，听我一句话（ok la,不时我讲的啦，我quote的）：天涯何处无芳草，何必在乎一枝花？？ haha!

so cliche-.-....anw, i had fun at Zena's 21st bdae party just now!~!!!!!!!!!!!! Thanks Zena!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

sang LOTS of songs just now...phew, super shuang...but sorry T-guys, if i was like HOGGING the mic just now...=(...

walao...my fren made me abit emo alr lars-.-.....

but anw, my new hairstyle isnt so bad-looking after all! =D found a way to style it~ and now the thing is to let it grow~grow~grow! WAKAKA!

wow super late alr, 4 hours slp again...-.-...shit...i've gotta change my lifestyle, man..

nitez! ciao!

bleah.

emo.

2008-09-06T02:15:00.003+08:00

feel super down now. =(

i tot i can get it....sighs, too confident alr, should learn this lesson.

wanna shout, but cant, cos i got this in my NTU email inbox:

To hall residents

We have received feedback about noise pollution at Jurong West Street 91 in the hours after midnight. The noise is alleged to be caused by loud chatter from groups believed to be NTU hall residents as they make their way back to campus through the overhead bridge at PIE.

While we are not suggesting that the above feedback is verified, we find it helpful to advise all hall residents to observe the laws with regard to public order and nuisance at all times. Any conduct that upholds the good name of the university will benefit students eventually as it promotes a positive public image of our students.

Thank you.

STUDENT AFFAIRS OFFICE

hais....

I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT. I DIN GET IT.

:(

BYE.

wat a weekend in hall.

2008-08-25T00:14:00.003+08:00

lalalalalalalala, i'm going NTUCO tml~! excited!...i hope it doesnt disappoint me...=/

hope i can be the sectional leader!

went S-word Evangelical Church in Jurong East with Samantha...not bad, it's a small but warm chruch =)

ok! which church is next?? =x

hmmmmmmm, why m i so free??????? i mean academically. ppl around me are like all drowning with tutorials and i'm like, "wah, how come so many tutorials??? why i dun haf?!?!" zzzz.

but i haf lots of readings! oh ya! havent read those i supposed to haf read de! X.x

played softball ytd. bad weather, keep raining. played from 9 plus am till 2 plus pm, had lunch in canteen 2, and walked back to hall 11 in the rain =.=....tt's not it yet.

on the way, cos of the stupid rain, the tiles are wet and slippery, AND my stupid 3 dollar slippers haf TOTALLY NO friction left on its smooth and soft sole. FINALLY, i fell butt first onto the floor....WALAO PAIN LA........sighs, now still pain when walking sia =(.....must recover before 2nd sept bball IBG ah......zzz

ok, signing off now, off i go to read my readings and prepare for tml's lesson.

ciao.

无题

2008-08-19T02:22:00.003+08:00

冰，
在一股偶然的暖流下后；
两人相视会心一笑时，
瞬间溶化。

但是，谁也没有继续。

...

就那么几秒钟的停顿，两个人就如隔了千里，千年。

再次凝结，
冰。

wat the...

2008-08-18T03:20:00.003+08:00

oh man, i'm so so so freakin dumb, why would i do that!? wat the hell m i thinking, man.

STUPID.....................late nights is bad for me, seriously.

OH MAN I WANT TO JOIN SO MANY STUFF!

wishlist:
-hall basketball team
-GL/AGL for next hall camp
-hall XI Jam Band drummer
-some comm of Chinese Orchestra, at least a sectional leader
-cheerleading (LOL, ya i noe)
-hall XI 15th JCRC: cultural sec (either this or GL/AGL)

oh man oh man......busy busy!

and uneasy uneasy! cos like all my frens are pia-ing tuts while i happily online and blah blah blah....like nothing to do! i'm too free till i feel uneasy~

oh man...

oh woman.

o.O..going mad, sign off now.

ciao.

GREAT DAY! (Friday)

2008-07-12T00:46:00.005+08:00

WOW! wat can i say!? i had a G-R-E-A-T, GREAT DAY today!

went out right after teaching SMK students...HOHOHO~ went to have breakfast with cheng jun, rou min and WAN YUN! x) SUPER HAPPY!...the roti prata that rou min brought us to is soooooooooooo delicious! =P

hahahahaha...after that we went leisure mall...we were like super early, 10am, all the shops are not opened...so discussed abt what movie we wanna watch and we decided to have a mini movie marathon! HAHA! so decided to watch HellBoy2 at 1145 and WarOfTheDragons at 1400...xD

and the bowling alley was finally opened at 1030 and we played a game before we got our movie tix. i scored 89 points! haha...not bad ba?? ^^

so after the two movies it was like 1600 lo...and got back home at 4 something, then the minute i stepped into my house, dad wanna go fetch mum from church alr, so i just stuff my drumsticks into my bag and grab my radio and off i go to church for drumming lesson! (I AM THE ONE TEACHING).....

drumming lesson ended at 630pm, then had dinner at home...and 720pm, off i go for rehearsal of tml's "hundred men choir" (百人诗班) event! oh man...my thorat is aching now~...=( hope it wont become sorethroat tml...

HAHA! wat an enriching day i had!

and i'm super SHAGGED now...super tired, just fin watching channel U korean movie, 冰雨...

I GO SLEEP LE!

oyasumi~ =_=

P.S. HellBoy2 was nice, but just that it's abit draggy...and my seat was too far away from the screen...and WarOfTheDragons is err...lousy, i can say...not worth my RM6 LOL..but nvm la, lol, just RM6, what i expect!?

DISASTER~!!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-07-01T00:35:00.006+08:00

omg omg....fat alr!! now is 0035 of 1st july and i just eaten a bowl of maggie-like-spaghetti, and 1 and a half chicken wing! GOSH~! i'm gonna be as fat as a PIG!!!!! MUM la! say wat young can eat more! force me to eat the chicken wing! URGH!~

oh man...翼旋风is out...although i'm not really their supporter, but i prefer them to 樱...=.= stupid INK..LOL. INK's fan dun scold me ah! freedom of speech ok!

and and and! btw!

伍个人 ROCKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
SYNPATHY ROCKS TOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!(but the drummer have to buck up! =x)

the drummer of 伍个人is GOOD.......(i hate to say tt though.=.= those who noe me shall noe) i kinda like his style of playing. hmmm i wonder who is better..me or him?? and his name is Benjamin Thia, hng..man...i shall rmb YOU!...and i wonder which JC are they from...

went night safari right...so now...pics!

i like this one...x)

hahahahahha, quite cool oh? xP....i love my shirt hahahaha

lalala~i'm tagged~by...JANICE!!!!~ =x

2008-06-28T13:05:00.005+08:00

People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs. Tag 8 people to do this quiz & those who are tagged cannot refuse. il bet thats how they get these stuff gg. These people must state who they were tagged by & cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by. Continue this game by sending it to other people! therefore, lohser君 is tagged by janice...

1. If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?
"go and die." =x

2. If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?
form a band, and be famous, like Linkin Park, Maroon Five, Click Five, etc.

3. What will your dream wedding be like?
be blessed at a big big church, those with coloured glass...u noe, and sun light shines in from the glass panes...=D lol, i feel so sissy answering this ques, eeew...

4. Are you confused as to what lies ahead of you?
hmmm...i guess so...but i noe God will lead my way and prepare the best for me!~=D

5. What is your ideal lover like?
understanding, accept me for who i am. =/

6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
being loved by someone that you love is the most blessed option.

7. How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
as long as the feeling is still there and she's not married.

8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
wat can i do? SNATCH her?? =.=...wish her happiness lo, still close friends wat...

9. Is being tagged fun?
ya, cos i'm sick of slacking and dunno wat to blog abt, thanks janice. WAKAKA~

10. How do you see yourself in ten years' time?
married man with a stable job.

11. Who are currently the most important people to you?
FnF.

12. What kind of person do you think the one who tagged you is?
hard ques. i have mixed feelings sia. =x oh ya it's not abt how i feel..okok.
hmmm, friendly, cheerful, cute and funny.

13. Would you rather be single & rich or married but poor?
sinlge and rich.

14. What's the first thing you do every morning?
shut my handphone alarm and continue to slp for more than an hour.

15. Would you give it all in a relationship?
sure. when i'm ready.

16. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?
you wont FALL IN LOVE with two people simultaneously..tt's not LOVE, tt's INFATUATION, or LIKE. i noe it's hard to differentiate, i'm oso learning how to, but, they are different!

17. What type of friends do you like?
truthful ones.

18. What type of friends do you dislike?
hypocrites, backstabbers

Tagged: Amanda SEE, wanlin, sharon, jocelyn~, miko, jenjen, yogi, xian!

(WA FINALLY! finished tagging 8 ppl=.=....it took me more time tagging 8 ppl than doing the tag! cos need to see who's blog are updated sia..LOL!)

对了，忘了提醒，小心哦。。。我可是杀人于无形与无意的武林高手~嘿嘿嘿...

疑问（第3天）

2008-06-25T13:01:00.003+08:00

不知道有没有看到，直到今天，也还不知道是什么疑问。。。

不敢再叫，说过，就算了，没看到，也算了。。。

反正，还有一个月，再一个月，这一切都不重要了。。。

哇哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈 =(

白痴。

篮球篮球！最近超疯篮球，很想天天打，可是又很累=.=...好像有进步，可是不敢讲，等下其实是我“自作多情”、“自以为是”就惨了 x_x

最近，好无聊。。。电话又没钱了，只剩下RM0.36，=.= 好惨，都不能sms...hais....missing u like hell........=x

在看《天龙八部》噢！哈哈哈哈，尽管说我迟钝吧，“新修版”都出了，我才开始看原版，LOL。

《一公升的眼泪》超令人感动！哇哈哈！也尽管说我迟钝吧！真的超感人！从第三集开始每一集我都哭啦！整整哭了9集！walao...LOL...so touching so nice!

现在要开始看《太王四神记》了，不过我看是看不完的啦。。。尽量尽量！希望可以rip进电脑里。。。

LOL! for my dear banana readers out there! sorry ya! recent posts ALL in chinese, SO CHEENA RITE!?!?!?!?! xD i just feel like blog in chinese, BLEAH...bo bian, i'm admitted to NTU Chinese! LOL!

ciao!

为什么不要我载你？唉。。。='(

疑问（第1天）

2008-06-23T23:18:00.005+08:00

疑问？她会有什么疑问呢？

跟猫一样好奇的我，今天没有追问她。。。也许，是害怕听到不会回答、很难回答，或回答了，会造成无法挽回的后果的问题。。。

我，也有许多的疑问，但没有问，不知道怎么问，更不敢问。
为什么？
怕，怕知道答案后伤心，怕她说出答案后伤心，怕。。。

唉。。。笨。无聊。没事干，才会这样。想了超多的东西，都是些有的没的。

为什么大学这么迟开学？为什么我不要去找工作？为什么我这段时间要回来？。。。为什么。。。

我还是很想知道，那“一些”疑问是什么。。。

可是，我却。。。没有勇气问。

哦，对了，忘了告诉你们，我撞了我生平中的第二次车。。。就在父亲节的那个星期日。。。好了，就不详述了。。。

寻找勇气中。。。

大学快来。。。让我离开这个地方。。。迎接一个全新的生活。。。

唉。空。

(当)真希望(你)是唱给我听的。。。

好长好长！长篇大论！难得！

2008-06-17T22:41:00.005+08:00

《当你》
歌手：王心凌专辑：cyndi begin

作词:林俊杰作曲:张思尔

如果有一天
我回到从前
回到最原始的我
你是否会觉得我不错
如果有一天
我离你遥远
不能再和你相约
你是否会发觉我已经说再见
当你的眼睛眯着笑
当你喝可乐当你找
我想对你好
你从来不知道
想你想你
也能成为嗜好
当你说今天的烦恼
当你说夜深你睡不着
我想对你说
却害怕都说错
好喜欢你
知不知道
如果有一天
梦想都实现
回忆都成了永远
你是否还会记得今天
如果有一天
我们都发觉
原来什么都可以
无论是否还会停留在这里
也许可是让我想得太多
也许该回到没我
梦里和相遇
就毫不犹豫
大声的说我要说
当你的眼睛眯着笑
当你喝可乐当你找
我想对你好
你从来不知道
想你想你
也能成为嗜好
啦～啦～
我想对你说
却害怕都说错
还喜欢你
知不知道
啦～啦～

以前不是很注意这首歌的歌词。。。最近再次听到了，才发现歌词还蛮不错的，原来是林俊杰作的词，说他代表新加坡还真不是盖的。。

唉。。。歌词好，唱的人如果对了，听的人如果也对了，那就好。。。可是，唱的人没感觉，听的人有感觉，那。。。还是好吗？=/
不知道。还是。。其实，唱的人也有感觉？？nah...应该。。不会吧，想太多了。
如果有感觉，如果是对对的人唱的，我只能说，对歌中的问题，我的回答都会是“会”。。。

超闷超无聊的，期待着开学！难得我这么想读书。。。真想快点离开这个乱糟糟的地方。。。=x昨天去了新加坡夜间动物园，之后去jonathan家过夜，慧婷跟jonathan住在同一个组屋区！哈哈！真巧！真好！隔天要跟慧婷一起回马来西亚。。。^^ 跟她谈了好多。。。从十二点左右谈到两点~。。。=D 希望还有机会聊这么久！=)

到了jonathan家有种回到家的感觉。。感觉很好，不会拘束。在异乡有这么一个地方，真的是，太棒了！LOL...

夜间动物园。。。普普通通，就。。乌漆抹黑的。。。不能用闪光灯，拍照什么都看不到。。。=(...不过在坐电车的时候，有一个风景真的是难以形容的美：从缓缓行驶的电车中放眼望去，湖畔的树林在月光的照耀下，非常完整地倒映在没有丝毫涟漪，平滑如镜的湖水上。那一幕，真令人惊叹，惊奇。。。但是，不知为什么，只有我发出感叹的“倒抽气”的声音。。与我同行的雨雯、柔皿和国义都没反应。。。难道，是我的幻觉？还是我井底蛙，这样的景色都没见过，对他们来说不算美？

我的，在哪里呢？

萧敬腾的《收藏》，好听。

RANDOM: i'm evil, he's devil, u're camel.

too bored....so...

2008-06-09T10:31:00.004+08:00

was too bored and went to blog-hop, came across this post at WS's blog...since i'm tagged, so i'll do lo, since i'm too bored...and i just realized tt WS didnt follow rule number 3, or he did and i din see? lol.

Rules:
1. The rules of the game get posted at the beginning.
2. Each player answers the questions about themselves.
3. At the end of the post the player then tags 5 people and posts their names, then goes to their blogs and leaves a comment, letting them know they got tagged and to ask them to play and read your blog.

Starting time: 1033
Name: Chu Luo Jun
Sisters: 2
Brothers: 2
shoe size: 9
Height: 168cm
Where do you live: Permas Jaya, Johor.
Favourite drinks: Green Tea
Favourite breakfast: 干捞 wanton mee! xD
Have you ever been on a plane: yes
Swam in the ocean: hmmm...i think i did.
Fallen asleep in school: DUH, who didnt?
Broken someone's heart: yea...and mine had been broken too (i insist to tell this although i'm not asked, bleah)
Fell off your chair: Yes
Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call: yes
Saved e-mails: yes
What is your room like: my room...i shall assume it means my hoste room...MESSY
What's right beside you: my handphone.
What is the last thing you ate: 清汤伊面
Ever had chicken pox: err...dunno eh, dun think haf, dun rmb.
Sore throat: yes (crap ques-_-)
Stitches: no
Broken nose: no la
Do you believe in love at first sight: if u call infatuation love, then yes. if not, no.
Like picnics: depeneds on who m i going picnic with.
Who was the last person you danced with: Jia Yi. (i like this ques)
Last made you smile: sms from someone, i think. cant rmb, i always smile LOL.
last yelled at: err...dunno eh.

Today did you:
Talk to someone you like: yup
Kissed anyone: no
Get sick: no..
Talked to an ex: no
Miss someone: yes
Eat: Duh?

Best feeling in the world: being loved.
Do you sleep with stuffed animals: NO.
What's under your bed: old photographs.
Who do you really hate: no one.
What time is it now: 1043
Random:
Q: Is there a person who is on your mind right now: yea
Q: Do you have any siblings: refer up
Q: Do you want children: yes
Q: Do you smile often: always
Q: Do you like your hand-writing: of cos
Q: Are your toenails painted: No
Q: Whose bed other than yours would you rather sleep in: err...dots, best frens'
Q: What colour shirt are you wearing: grey? not sure, i'm colour blind
Q: What were you doing at 7:00pm yesterday: napping

I can't wait till: I form a band and join Channel U's SUPERBAND comp.
Q: When did you last cry: friday night.
Q: Are you a friendly person: Yes
Q: Do you have any pets: yup
Where is the person you have feelings for right now? in school.

Did the last person you held hands with mean anything to you now? yup, of cos, and i hope she's reading this...

Do you sleep with the TV on? never eh..
What are you doing right now? blogging. playing NBA both online and NBA LIVE '08, lol.

Have you ever crawled through a window? i think i did, lol, wanna try it again.
Can you handle the truth? yup
Are you too forgiving? no
Are you closer to your mother or father? mother..
Who was the last person you cried in front of? err...not only one person eh, it's a crowd of my friends when i'm giving testimony on stage in church's youth fellowship.
How many people can you say you've really loved? 2, i think...i suck in differentiating my feelings, i'm good at integrating it.
Do you eat healthy? nope, not intentionally.
Do you still have pictures of you & your ex? Yes
Have you ever cried because of something someone said to you? yup
How often do you go to church? at least once every week, sometimes 2-3 times a week.
If you're having a bad day, who are you most likely to go to? mei jie...=x
Are you loud or quiet most of the time? loud
Are you confident? yup, sometimes too confident..

5 things I was doing 10 years ago.. (1998, when i was primary3...)
1- Won awards in school...
2- Came in 1st in co-hort.
3- Failed PTS. was damn sad sia.
4- Cry when bullied
5- dunno

5 things on my to-do list today
1- get mum's tuition material photocopied
2-
3-
4-
5-

5snacks I enjoy
1- cloud nine chocolate
2- ferrero rocher
3- kisses =x...i mean the chocolate
4- kinder bueno
5- chocolate
LOL!

5 things I would do if I were a billionaire
1- Buy my own car
2- pay University fees by myself.
3- let mum retires and rest.
4- let my parents go overseas to travel.
5- Save the rest.

5 bad habits
1- Stubborn
2- Lazy
3- Messy
4- Indecisive
5- Inconsiderate sometimes

5 places I have lived in
1- Permas Jaya
2- HCI boarding school
3- Oldham Hall
4-
5-

5 jobs I've had

1- Student
2-
3-
4-
5-

5 ppl I tag

1- wanlin
2- yu wen
3- wei jiea
4- jia chang
5- xue wei

思·想/私·享/思·享/私·想

2008-06-05T10:51:00.006+08:00

曲名：想太多歌手：李玖哲
你笑着说他是朋友
但你眼中太温柔
我的不安那么沉重
只有你不懂

他霸占了你的心中
属于我的角落
所以你说
我们
不是你和我
是我想太多你总这样说
但你却沒有真的心疼我
是我想太多我也这样说
这是唯一能安慰我的理由
他霸占了你的心中
属于我的角落
所以你说
我们
不是你和我
是我想太多你总这样说
但你却沒有真的心疼我
是我想太多我也这样说
这是唯一能安慰我的理由
我想我沒有错怪了什么
虽然你不说都是错在我
太晚我才懂爱了你太多
OH~~
是我想太多你总这样说
但你却沒有真的心疼我
是我想太多我也这样说
这是唯一能安慰我的理由

我看。。没有一首歌能够这样贴切地描述我现在的心情了。。。
能怪谁？只能怪自己。
以为自己是谁？？唉。。。
闷。。提不起劲。
难道那一切都是幻觉？都是我自己想太多？可能吧。。。我生来就是这样。
算了，再过两个月，我就会迎接我新的生活了，可能，就会，忘掉了吧？应该是吧，我很“健忘”的。。
剩下的这两个月里，还有机会跟你出去，请你吃饭，看电影吗？
不懂。

曲名：彩虹歌手：周杰伦
哪里有彩虹告诉我
能不能把我的愿望还给我
为什么天这么安静
所有云都跑到我这里

有没有口罩一个给我
释怀说了太多就成真不了
也许时间是一种解药
也是我现在正服下的毒药

看不见你的笑我怎么睡得着
你的身影这么近我却抱不到
没有地球太阳还是会绕
没有理由我也能自己走

你要离开我知道很简单
你说依赖是我们的阻碍
就算放开那能不能别没收我的爱
当作我最后才明白

rap
看不见你的笑
要我怎么睡得着
你的身影这么近我却抱不到
没有地球太阳开始环绕环绕
没有理由我也能自己走掉
是我说了太多就成真不了
也许时间是一种解药解药
也是我现在正服下的毒药

也许时间是一种解药
也是我现在正服下的毒药
也许。。。

开心？开心。开心。。
好陌生，好遥远。

RAAAAAAAAAAAAHSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS

2008-04-20T00:33:00.003+08:00

WALAO!! 我剪了头发！伤心！难过！非笔墨所能形容的失望！不甘心！真是的，词穷了 =.=

感觉上很不好看耶！越看越不爽咯！突然想作诗了。

长发离家短发回，
刘海无改颈后凉。
镜前越看越不爽，
面试大完奈它何？

顶上三千烦恼丝，
长的长来心甚欢。
谁知南大致电来，
通报何时赴面试。
表面看似佳音至，
非也非也...索命状是也！

哇，写不下去了啦！不会写咯！等我想到了再去edit。来吧，先用普通的文字老老实实的写吧。

话说。。。上个星期五，一个风和日丽，阳光普照，简单的来说，就是很热，的一天，是《功夫之王》上映的日子！我、炜翔、jensen和fergen本来约好要一起看的，谁知道，那个cool到不行的林斐庚（写错名不要怪我）跟上次、上上次和上上上次一样，放了我们的鸽子、飞机、风筝，可以放得他都放完了啦！结果，我就勉为其难地圆了炜翔长久以来的梦，办了一个“联谊”（不知道这是什么意思的话，很好，知道的话，不要跟不知道的人讲）。我觉得办得很差啦，还以为会惹来WS的投诉，谁知道，过后还跟我说"he had a great time."，不过，我还是觉得他在应酬我。。不过还好啦，某某人有讲他很好看，有有人要他的电话。。。靠！我都没有！=x

好了，回到正题。话说。。。我们要看的戏是四点的，由于我们酷到不行的林斐庚放的飞机，我和WS正讨论着要把多出来的戏票吃掉，因为我们真的是饿到不行了，然后还要等Jesmin、芝仪和rebecca来，结果，等等等等等~我们等到花儿谢了又开，开了又谢，谢了又开，终于3.30pm的时候，该来吃午餐的都来了，还不错，传说中的brood mother (=P) 还带多一个朋友来。可是hor，我们的戏是四点的wor！高兴liao咯。。。高兴到。。。结果，我都不能好好地享受我的第一次。。。='( 喂喂喂！不要乱想啊！我第一次吃sushi king！第一次就这样狼吞虎咽掉了。sobz~

惨了，我觉得我很像冠程，都没有讲重点=.=

好，重点来了，跳回我们还没吃饭，我、WS和泳程在电影院外徘徊的时候。。。我的电话，突然响了。。。

南大打来叫我下星期一（21/4）去面试！中文系！

赢liao咯，面试大完咯，我的头发完liao咯。。唉。。。真得完了。我的头发，比JC时还短了。

...

WTH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

本来没有觉得怎样，还觉得蛮好看的，可是！越看越不爽，越看好像越短，越不顺眼！

唉。。。不想blog了，不知道要写什么。。。=(

我不想讨厌那个人的咯，可是为什么我觉得我好像有点讨厌他？hais...

...

空虚 ._.

hohohoho

2008-04-15T00:14:00.002+08:00

hohoho...i'm in jonathan's house again! staying over for one night...so sad cant stay for long...=( have to go back home tml to teach tuition at night. hais...cant imagine working life, man...i guess it'll be super boring.

sighs, feel like pursuing those careers with flexible timing leh...so cool...like got so many free time lo...haiyoh..can get in uni and get out with a degree then say ba...society today, no decree no talk, got decree oso dunno got ppl wanna talk to u anot..hmm is it "decree" or "degree"? i think it's decree...LOL. watever, man..when i got it then i'll noe, dun haf it, know alr oso no use.

rahs, emptiness....my whole person is gonna be swallowed by the emptiness deep from my heart soon, it's growing day by day!!!!!! RAHS~ think i'll become empty man soon

the vacuum!~ i need something to fill it up! =( maybe not "thing"..maybe is "one"...

BLAH~ watever la, crapping now alr, had a long and fun day, went back HCICO, college one, oh not BACK, i mean, went for HCICO, go see zhezhao and harry and the forgot-wat-his-name-from-bass-to-percussion guy, in short, my juniors lo. went with liangcheng and jona, nice..crapped and eat with them..ok i mean, crap as in talk nonsense, eat as in eat dinner, not crap and eat, u noe.

ok, i'm really blabbering nonsense alr, and oh gosh, my spec is spoilt, YAY! =x gonna go get a new one alr, lol, right after dao en got his..

blah..christina is chasing me off alr=.= it's her house after all, give her face la, so i have to end soon...

bleh...christina, if u're reading this, pls stop bullying me the poor, innocent, malaysian teenager who stay over at ur house, stop torturing me, stop nagging at me and stop throwing pillows at me, stop pinching me, stop kicking me!!!! and stop depriving me of internet and computer~~~~ or else....i'll call.....CHILDREN'S AID!!!!.........eh wait, children? i'm not children anymore, aiyah watever la.

feel like signing off now, but that christina yong havent come lehs...stay on longer...

aiyoh, sianz...sign off alr la, ciao.

P.S. stupid=.= still want me to go call her=.=

靠！

2008-04-11T15:25:00.003+08:00

挫折感！！！！！！！

我感受到了超级无敌霹雳宇宙太阳系银河系中文系日文系的挫折感！

靠！

刚刚“肥佬”了我的驾驶pre-test (pra-ujian)...虽说我真的是紧张，可是！可是！我非常无敌霹雳宇宙太阳系银河系中文系日文系地肯定！这*不完全是我的错！（*注！是“不完全”，不是“完全不”）

哇咧！我到刚才肥佬了才知道，原来一个小时要***RM25!!!! 然后我最后这两堂课的那个老不死，竟然在我在大马路上开车的时候睡觉！还睡到他抓住车顶handle的手掉下来！！!#$^!?(*!&!?*我一连咳嗽了好几声他都没有反应！真的超想把他的头一把抓起来，然后直接"pun（第一声）" 向他前面的dashboard! 靠！

过后的pre-test, 不用讲，直接被讲到一文不值，讲我有学没有会，直接错两个mandatory mistake，不用讲，肥佬了咯。直接去book时间学多十年...=.=

靠！一进office，跟她book时间，过后直接跟她讲：“可以换老师吗？之前那个在我上大路的时候睡觉咯！”旁边另外一个小姐直接难以置信地问我：“啊？你驾车的时候他在睡觉？？”哇咧，真的是。。。

哇老。。。希望换到一个比较好的来教我啊。。。祷告祷告。。。

哇，刚刚吃午餐时想到，我应该拍下他睡觉的样子咯！直接可以跟JPJ投诉！唉！在新加坡读了这么多年书，都没有学到他们complain complain complain!的功力。。。哈！因为我知道，在马来西亚，oops! 不可以讲得这么明白！。。。*小声*因为我知道。。。在“这里”，complain了也没有人管！靠！

bored

2008-04-10T10:44:00.002+08:00

循众要求...就update一下啦...是显得咯，显到。。。都不想写blog...

lalalalala, update...oso nothing to update....life is so boring lo....onli looking forward to fridays and weekends...

later going to learn driving from 1-3pm, 2nd last session alr...hope i can perfect my driving, then can go for JPJ test on 16th april! then get license then I'M FREE!!!!! omgomgomgomgomgomg, i cant wait alr....!!!!!!!

sighs...some say, there's a god-shaped vacuum in everyone's heart, i agree. but..i think, there's also a lover-shaped vacuum...and it's size will grow with boredom....so it's directly proportional to boredom, and directly proportional to the emptiness one feels. the bigger that vacuum it becomes, the more stupid and more irrational one will become..RAHS. =(

but, still, luckily, i have onli one vacuum in my heart, tt's the lover-shaped one, i've got the god-shaped filled! =) filled with the one and only God, "I AM"/"I AM WHO I WILL BE"/"I AM WHO I AM"...

sighs....uni, uni, enrol me, quick! let me leave this place....=( this boring and torturous place.

人是矛盾的。当你在读书时，想着放假，想着不用读书时有多好。可是，当你真的不用读书，时间多到傻，多到你不懂要怎样用，连几百年前的连续剧也看得津津有味，的时候，又会想：哇...如果现在还有上课的话该有多好...矛盾！

哇劳，我也是很不顶我自己咯，根本没理由啊，怎么自己还会这么折磨自己。靠！真是的，我都不会了咯。

wahaha, 多了很多俚语啊，没办法，“返乡随俗”啊。hoho.

想想想想想想想想想想想想想想想想想想想想想想想想想想想想想想想想想想想想想想想想想到傻！

救命！

MOVE ON

2008-03-11T00:46:00.002+08:00

oh well, gotten my result now, dun think i would like to let the world know here...

AND DUN ASK.

applying for NTU now, just go according to plan, and i'm sure God will prepare the best for me.

1st choice: Chinese
2nd choice: Arts (Education)
3rd choice: Science (Education)
4th choice: Linguistics & Multilingual Studies
5th choice: Psychology

tt are the choice...haha

nice?

i love it.

ciao

long time no blog, and..i'm tagged!

2008-03-06T02:25:00.004+08:00

Instructions:Remove 1 question from below, and add in your personal question, make it a total of 20 questions, then tag 8 people in your list, list them out at the end of this post. Notify them in their chat box that he/she has been tagged. Whoever does the tag will have blessings from all.

1. At what age do you wish to marry?
25 yrs old.

2. Have you given your first kiss away?
yah...

3. If you were to be stranded on a desert island, who are the 3 blog buddies you would take with
you? Why?
-Jensen: cos he can entertain me, at least i can die HAPPILY.
-XianYong: cos...he's shorter than me, then i'm not the shortest of all.
-Alex: cos....he's alex.

4. Where is the place that you want to go the most?
France

5. If you can have 1 dream to come true, what would it be?
CLEAR MY PIMPLE PLS

6. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?
DUH, possible wat! and it's scientifically proven as a fact tt u MAY see a rainbow after the rain, it's not something tt can be featured in "Ripley's believe it or not".

7. What are you afraid to lose the most now?
My life.

8. If you win $1 million, what would you do?
i...will use it.

9. If you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?
depends. see how lo (tt's wat i always say), most probably will, but, if you two had been v good frens, and u noe she/he likes someone else, DUN confess..hais

10. List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you.
wah, this is hard...xD (can i change this question? LOL) ok la, jk jk. err....cute, pretty, nice. =)

11. What are the requirements that you wish from your other half?
love God, love my family, love me.

12. Which type of person do you hate the most?
hypocrites, esp those who dun dare to show tt they dun like me and try to ACT NICE. BOO~

13. What is your ambition?
be used by God, to spread His love! =)

14. If you have fault, would you rather the people around you point out to you or would you rather they keep quiet?
point it out to me, PLS, dun talk bad behind my back.

15. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
Family

16. Are you a shopaholic or not?
YES

17. Find a word to describe the person who tagged you.
OLD, because xue wei, u are my old fren! primary school oh! x)

18. If you have a chance. Which part of your character you would like to change?
Be more outgoing. (alex said:"arent you outgoing enough?!")

19. Is there anything that u have did make u felt regret?
sadly, yes...hais

20. What makes you different?
I'm Chu Luo Jun. the one and only one, is tt enough??

i tag:
WeiJiea, Jensen, XianYong, Christina, WanLin, JiaChang, JaniceChua, HuiFang FAN!xD

birthday! WHEE~!

2008-02-15T14:07:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BELATED BDAE TO MYSELF!!!!

I AM NINETEEN THIS YEAR!!!!

so...this is wat happened on my 19th birthday...

woke up at 9+ in the morning...then wash up, pack my things into my last year's bdae gift: crumpler's barney rustle blanket...and off i go to SG!!!! hahaha.

time really flies...one year has passed, and i'm nineteen this year, A levels finally over...and result is now coming out soon...scary.

anw, so i went jon n christina's house in woodlands first hahas, to collect my present from christina!!! wohoo~! Ayumi's GUILTY!!!! xD finally! YES...hahaha..aiyah but sadly, no posters! x( i think it has run out of stock d...sighs...aiyer, i die die must get the poster when next album comes out!!! after i gotten the CD straightaway play at her place, HOHO. not v nice though...=x i prefer her last few albums, but there are still some nice songs la hahas. havent really listen closely to it..

then stayed at their place, crap awhile, then go westmall to meet 4P buddies at 1230pm! WHEE~!

ok here goes, so i met up with yogi and fergen at the library in westmall, then waited for yijie for super long, RAHS...and finally, we had our lunch, then we went....BOWLING!!!! xD
it was fun and dang u yijie, had a turkey and keep saying it's taiko, halfway thru the game he get 100+ points le=.=....totally nvr give face to me the birthday boy, ...

LOL, then after tt, i rushed back home liaos...nvr stay for the night, sorry michelle and samantha(CO), next time let u all treat ya! xD...

kkk, i should go now, super late le, tml still haf to wake up early to teach tuition! =.=...nites!

enjoy the pics!

eh? hais.

2008-02-13T23:08:00.003+08:00

hais, wth...i'm emo now, and dun ask me why, i oso dunno. =(

sighs

today had quite a great day, went out with xin yi, yu wen and yong cheng, we went to watch kung fu dunk, hoho, it's nice! =) lol. luckily i chose the cantonese version one, cos, it we watch the chinese version, ALL the casts except Jay will be dubbed, and for the cantonese version, only Jay is dubbed, LOL! how ironical.

anw, it's my bdae tml, and i'm feeling emo now, how great.

hais...why why why m i emo?!

should i go sg tml? =( dunno...i'm tired lehs.

since i'm tired, i shall go offline soon...mum oso nagging liaos, hais, annoying leh............

think i wanna write something in my diary book later.

hao le la, that's all le i think, too emo to blog more abt the outing, blog le oso no one wanna see.

ciao

oh ya, happy bdae to me.

情人节格言

2008-02-12T14:57:00.000+08:00

什么叫浪漫？
明知那个女孩不爱他，还送她999朵玫瑰。

那......什么叫浪费？
明知那个女孩很爱她，还送她999朵玫瑰。

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某餐厅服务员的观察：
一男一女用餐后，
男人付账是情人关系；
女人付账是夫妻关系；
男女抢着付帐时朋友关系。

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结婚是爱情的坟墓，但如果不结婚，爱情就死无葬身之地。

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男人从不担心他的未来，直到他找到一个妻子；
女人常常担心她的未来，直到她找到一个丈夫。

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HAPPY CNY!!!!

2008-02-11T01:07:00.000+08:00

HOHOHO!!!! HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!!

lol, MIA for quite long le hor...and just post some stupid articles to fu1 yan3...lol, think i've lost quite a few of my "banana" readers! xD

anw, here are the updates for CNY...

aiyoh...this year's CNY eve dinner is the WORST i've ever had in my 18 years' life...waited for it for 30 min, then comes the YU SHENG, then after the YU SHENG, waited for yet another 30 min, GOSH...i was full by drinking the tea they served..wth. and when the dish comes, ALL come together, suddenly the whole table is full of dishes, all three come together, and they are NOT hot lo, it's all cold cold de! HELL HELL...next year must go other place to eat le..

went cha'ah on 2nd day of CNY, then just came back today, err..i mean ytd, which is sunday. went yum cha with ah yin and her frens, not bad, one of them stays in permas and work in SG! hoho, cool, cool. then went cha'ah church's service on sunday morning! =) not bad..but quite a small church, it's a good place for chen-li ppl to go and interact. ;) i shall organize, maybe. xP

oh and btw, esther, keep in touch ya.

hmmm, sianz...getting more and more nervous! results is coming out soon! help me, God...

hey christians reading, keep me in prayers ya. =) God bless.

P.S. i want AYUMI's new album!!! GUILTY!~~

nice articles again

2008-02-06T00:19:00.000+08:00

pardon me ya....i love these articles...so i post them. these are commentaries from a column from msia's newspaper: Sinchew Jitpoh. (xing zhou ri bao)...last time is abt the two videos...now, is abt the Msia's coming General Election and the political scene in Msia...these articles are cool...enjoy! (or maybe onli few of u will..)

這是哪門子的屁？ (CLASSIC)
2008-01-29 19:13
預先聲明，這改寫自坊間版本，若有雷同，不屬巧合。
幾個人同在一個房間，突然間，傳出一個又臭又響的屁。
大眼瞪小眼，沒有人承認。
終於第一個人出聲：
“這屁聽起來像是我的，嗅起來也像是我的；但是，我不能承認是我的，我也不能否認是我的。”
輪到下一個：
“屁股長在我的身上，要怎麼放屁，是我的權利；只要我不是光著屁股，讓人看到我在放屁，那就愛怎麼放就怎麼放。”

第三個人說話：
“我不記得放屁的聲音，也忘記了屁的氣味。怎麼啦，有人放屁嗎？”

第四個人：
“誰說有人放屁，他不是喝醉了，就是發瘋了。”

第五人：
“開甚麼玩笑，我沒有教唆別人放屁，如果有屁，我早就自己放了。”

第六人：
“這個屁是虛張聲勢，動機是污蔑別人。”

一個臭屁，看盡虛偽人生。屁就是屁，甚麼達官貴人，社會精英，屁可真正臭中極品。

星洲日報／夜雨晨風‧作者：鄭丁賢‧2008.01.29
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評論：這樣的感覺，真好！
2008-02-04 22:46
這年頭，一切憑著感覺走。
道路換上了新裝。
組屋髹上了新顏。
華小獨中收到了新撥款。
準候選人滿街跑，向選民大送秋波。
看起來，好像大選的腳步愈來愈近了。
感覺上，這一切一切，都好像是選前派送的糖果。
但是，沒有人願意承認。
他們都說，看起來上像，感覺上像，但我沒有說“yes”。
即使你問100次，他們還是給你同樣的答案。
這個年，感覺上憂喜參半。
憂的是，百物騰漲，市景蕭條，經濟不振。
喜的是，冬去春來，全國上下瀰漫著“我們是一家人”的圓融氛圍。
現在，連最敏感的印裔訴求問題，也有望“守得雲開見月明”了。
現在，萬事好商量，最重要的是，要珍惜當下，要感恩，要懂得回報。
這樣說下去，大選的感覺又來了。
哦，不、不、不！別這樣說，不是說了嗎，你再說100次，我還是那句老話──看起來像，聽起來也像。如此而已。
只要大選未過，良辰美景，就會維持不變，延續不斷。
這個鼠年，看來可以開放一點。
今年的煙火，應會特別多。
今年的爆竹，應會特別響。
這樣的感覺，很有做老闆的“feel”，真好！

星洲日報／夜雨晨風‧作者：林明華‧2008.02.04
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只任一屆？
2008-01-31 18:50
你相信“君子協定”嗎？
是否正如馬哈迪所說，他曾經和阿都拉達致協議，讓阿都拉只做一任首相？
口說無憑。除非，馬哈迪能夠拿出證據。
沒有證據的話，難免就有許多疑點。
1. 馬哈迪退位前，如果對阿都拉如此不放心，何必指定他作為繼任者？
2. 若有這項協議，馬哈迪如何確保阿都拉履行承諾？
3. 只任一屆，符合巫統和國陣的政治傳統嗎？
4. 這麼重大的事，只是兩個人私下決定嗎？
5. 納吉作為內定繼承者，他知道這回事嗎？他的立場又如何？
馬哈迪是個心思慎密的人。以腦筋運作的程序作比較，一般人若只想到下一步，馬哈迪可能已經想到下三步，甚至五步、十步了。深謀遠慮的人物，不會如此疏忽，讓別人吃了秤頭。
尤其他在政海翻騰大半輩子，甚麼爾虞我詐沒見過；對這麼重大的國家大位問題，他能不重重部署，遍設安全閥門，確保“協議”兌現？
假使有這項協議，至少要得到巫統最高理事會的核准，通過集體承諾，才有實現之可能。否則，隨時都會爆發黨爭。
當年，林良實和李金獅，據說也有類似協議。後來，李金獅無法上位，幾乎使馬華內鬨。
馬哈迪對馬華內鬥知之甚詳，不可能不知道“君子協定”的有效程度。
尤其，馬先生對“權力”二字，瞭若指掌，運用嫻熟；他必然知道，哪有人手握大權之後，會拱手相讓。
另一種解釋，是馬哈迪當初有這種意願，但是也只是停留在意願的階段，而沒有成為具體方案，更沒有形成具有約束力的協議。
實際上，這種“隔代指派”的方式，違反了政黨和政府組織的制度方式。
巫統和國陣政府是一座政治大機器，它是依靠系統來運作，不可能靠甚麼“君子協定”來操控它的方向。
堯舜禪讓的故事，只是神話。如果真有，幾千年來也只有這麼一宗；而且，它只可能出現在制度未建立，而道德意識極高的時代背景。
這不符合馬來西亞的現狀。

星洲日報／夜雨晨風‧作者：鄭丁賢‧2008.01.31
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消失中的強人
2008-02-01 19:49
剛完成一次艱險的心臟手術，多數人以為，馬哈迪真的要退休了。

不，他心臟的泵浦重新啟動，熱滾滾的血液，在血管內翻騰，一發不可收拾。

82歲了，永不言休。

這次，他除了“記起”曾經有過“君子協議”，還狠批巫統和國陣；在大選這節骨眼上，還真是勁爆。

老先生的批判，對政情會產生多大作用？

我想，影響有限。

反對黨陣營，大部分是他過去的死對頭，尤其是安華；雙方要配合，難度很高。

巫統高層內部，也沒有人公開挺他。

馬來社會基層，目前是吹阿都拉風向球。

除非大選結果刮逆向風，否則，馬哈迪還是孤獨的。

正好，美國《時代》週刊，這一期特寫東南亞的四大政治巨頭，分別是印尼蘇哈多、泰國國王普密蓬、新加坡資政李光耀，以及馬哈迪。

四大巨頭之中，蘇哈多剛逝世。蘇哈多之死，對印尼政局沒有激起漣漪，顯示強人政治式微，影響力煙消雲散。

這象徵一個時代的結束，也顯現印尼政治進入新一頁。

泰王普密蓬依然獲得全民的愛戴，然而，他的政治影響力，逐漸淡化；這可以從親塔信的政黨，在大選中大勝，看出變化。

新加坡的李光耀，是碩果僅存，保有權威的強人政治家。這要歸功於他過去的政績，以及其前瞻能力。

至於馬哈迪，他帶動國家的經濟發展；但是，也留下一個弊病重生的國家機器。

他能夠成為修理這部機器的人選嗎？

矛盾重重！

星洲日報／夜雨晨風‧作者：鄭丁賢‧2008.02.01

2008-02-03T18:06:00.000+08:00

Your Element Is Water
A bit of a contradiction, you can seem both lighthearted and serious.
That's because you're good at going with the flow - but you also are deep.
Highly intuitive, you tune in to people's emotions and moods easily.
You are able to tap into deep emotional connections and connect with others.
You prefer a smooth, harmonious life - but you can navigate your way around waves.
You have a knack for getting people to get along and making life a little more peaceful.

true? i think it's super true oh! hahas...nice. got it from facebook:What's Your Element, hahas...thanks euchoon lol.

oh btw, A levels result really releasing on 15th Feb??? ARGH~! really anot? someone confirm with me please!...

ciaos

YAY! FINALLY!

2008-02-03T01:36:00.000+08:00

YES LA! finally! i passed my driving theory exam!! with flying colours!!!

i can even pass the colourblind test! gosh, thank GOD!!!!

yay, praying does help!

whee~now left another theory lesson and 16 hours of practical, then can go practical exam lo!

YES! think i can get my license before May lo! wohoo~! i cant wait to drive le!!!

yay, when i can drive...i can go anywhere, anytime i want! how great is tt?! woah seh man!!!!!

yay yay yay!!! cant wait cant wait!

mum wanna learn how to use com, how to use internet worx...want me to teach her...hmmm, shall find time..but like quite hard to teach sia =x....hehs, oops..nothing la.

gonna go on a missionary trip in march! excited. hoho.

kkz, think tt's all...tired d...haf church in the morning....

nights, ciao.

hais

superb.

2008-02-01T11:53:00.000+08:00

林甘的異象空間
2008-01-22 19:36
“樣子像我，聲音也像我。”
問題是：到底這是不是“我”？
資深律師（不，隨著他已經出面供證，從今起，大家可以大方的稱他“林甘”）的答辯，要讓皇家調查委員會的成員愣住了。
他不承認影片中的人是他，但也沒有否認是他。
言下之意：有本事，你們來證明吧！
委員們又不是林甘，怎麼證明講電話的就是林甘？

只有真正的林甘，才知道講電話的是不是林甘。

真正的林甘，可能喝醉了，所以即使是林甘，也不知道影片中人，是不是林甘。

這是邏輯的遊戲。頭腦稍微模糊，會被耍得團團轉。

難怪此人呼風喚雨，成為國師策士。

古時候，也有類似的邏輯推理之辯。

庄子和惠子在濠水橋上游玩。莊子說：“鯈魚出游不慌不忙，這是魚的快樂。”

惠子說：“你不是魚，怎麼知道魚的快樂？”

庄子說：“你不是我，怎麼知道我不知道魚的快樂？”

惠子說：“我不是你，所以不知道你；可是你不是魚，你也不知道魚的快樂呀。”

庄子說：“我順著你最初的話來推理。你說‘你怎麼知道魚的快樂’這句話，已經知道我知道魚的快樂，可是你還問我。我在濠水橋上就知道魚的快樂了。”

林甘說，影片中的人像是他，聲音也像他；但是不代表就是他。

順此推理，在林甘家裡的“林甘”，可能不是林甘，可能是一個像是林甘的人；那間屋子，很像是林甘的屋子，然而，可能不是林甘的屋子。

那個一起開會吃飯的女子，看起來是林甘的妹妹，但是也有可能不是他妹妹，而只是長得像他妹妹。

和“林甘”通手機的人，可能是大法官阿末法魯斯，也可能是假裝是阿末法魯斯的人。

或者，羅美樺父子以為到了林甘的屋子；但是，那並不是現實中的林甘屋子，而是無意識中，撞入另一個世界，這個靈異空間裡，正好有類似林甘、林甘妹妹、林甘屋子的異象。

玩弄邏輯，鬼話連篇。

星洲日報／夜雨晨風‧作者：鄭丁賢‧2008.01.22

醫生和律師，白馬和黑馬
2008-01-23 19:37
中國戰國時代的公孫龍留下來了許多為後人所津津樂道的詭論，其中最廣為人所知的是“白馬非馬論”。相傳故事是這樣的：有一天，公孫龍子騎著一匹白馬要進城，守城官依照規定，不准他的馬進城。於是公孫龍子就開始了他那“千古傳誦”的論證。

請看看他如何詭辯：

1. 黑馬是馬
2. 白馬不是黑馬
3. 所以，白馬不是馬
4. 既然我的白馬不是馬，所以沒有理由不能出城

最後，他終於靠著他那三寸不爛之舌，以一套荒謬的詭辯說服了守城官，讓他騎著白馬進城去了。

回到2000多年後的今天。地點在馬來西亞。故事涉及兩個短片，人物有兩位，一位是律師，一位是醫生。

短片之一涉及性愛，當部長的蔡細歷醫生在短片曝光幾天後，便公開承認：“我，就是那位主角。”最後，黯然下台。

短片之二涉及司法，當律師的林甘在短片曝光幾個月後，卻始終既不承認，也不否認，只是一再強辯：“那個人貌似我，聲似我。”

各位，讓我們假設一下，如果林甘和蔡細歷是當年的公孫龍，他們會如何辯證。

答案也許很簡單。

對一位律師而言，他的專業知識告訴他，不管是白馬還是黑馬，為了自己的利益，便可以說牠們都不是馬，只是“貌似馬，聲似馬”而已。

但對一位醫生而言，他的專業知識告訴他，馬就是馬，不管是白馬還是黑馬，一刀切割，割出來的，都是血淋淋的馬肉，不可能是驢肉，更不可能是豬肉。

醫生和律師，身份不同，職業操守標準不同，所以判斷也不同。

性愛短片因為一刀了斷，所以匆匆落幕；司法短片因為吞吞吐吐，因此拖拖拉拉，成了“白馬非馬論”的另一個翻版，不但沒完沒了，也更為精彩絕倫。

“白馬非馬論”是以一套似是而非的語言遊戲來顛三倒四，混淆主體，2000年後我們細細重新品味這個故事，仍驚訝于詭辯和悖論的一脈相傳，目瞪口呆之餘，也不禁會心一笑。

星洲日報／夜雨晨風‧作者：林明華‧2008.01.23

hahaha, nice one...

2008-02-01T11:46:00.000+08:00

評論：蔡氏宣言
2008-01-04 18:50
老蔡臨走，說了很多負氣話。
既然是負氣，人們就不需過於當真，就當他是發些牢騷；不然，不僅有損老蔡剩餘的英名，也有誤導作用。
不過，無論如何負氣，還是得謹慎一些。畢竟老蔡作為超級焦點人物，言行是警惕，也有示範作用。
譬如老蔡奉勸未來的衛生部長不要太勤快，以免步上他的後塵。
首相阿都拉聽了，恐怕不怎麼同意。衛生部長，全國只有這麼一個，如果畏首畏尾，放慢腳步，誰來推動衛生事務？
人民也會說，換一個懶惰怕事的衛生部長，不如要一個專精政務，而且沒有女朋友的部長。
老蔡說：“很多人都有女朋友……，做賊的只要沒被捉到，就沒有事了。”
很多已婚男人聽了暗自僥幸。心裡會想，老蔡說得對，女朋友，大家有，下次小心點，勤換酒店，更換地點，就安全多了。
這是老蔡給男人的鼓勵嗎？
全國女性同胞，恐怕晚上會睡不著覺。
換個方式，正面一些，老蔡可以當著全國人民面前，發表蔡氏宣言：
“我老蔡，不應該有女朋友，更不該上酒店開房。我做錯了，我也懺悔。今後即使沒有人跟蹤我，即使沒有針孔攝影機，我也不再上酒店開房間。”
“我要回歸家庭，我宣誓只愛我太太一人，此生不渝，不再出軌；我希望全國男人從我身上得到教訓，永遠對家庭忠貞。”
此話一出，全國愛偷腥的男人，好像被麥泰遜一記重拳打中要害，至少半年不敢有邪念。
全國女性則雀躍，對老蔡感恩不已，封他為女人救星。
吉隆坡天后宮的婚姻註冊組，為每對新人作註冊時，也會附送《蔡氏宣言》一張，和結婚證書挾在一起，永誌不忘。

星洲日報/夜雨晨風‧作者：鄭丁賢‧2008.01.04

sighs...

2008-01-29T12:13:00.000+08:00

sigh sigh sigh...

get over it...get over it!

i cant i cant i cant!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

=( would the outcome be different if i told her?

some say the possibility is always 50/50. really? i doubt so. i'm just too kiasu and kiasi alr. gosh, wat has 6 years of education in SG done to me?!!?!?!?!

只要你开心就好，看到你幸福，我就幸福了。

HAHA, super cliche, and it's just pure crap...i would be a saint if i REALLY feel tt way...

maybe, maybe i would say tt, but i've already killed tt guy dunno how many times in my heart alr. and i would put his pic on my dartboard and practise my dart throwing skills on him.

oh, would it be different?

like i've said before, sometimes, VERY, SUPER, OVER best friends cant become couple. so far i've lost 3 opportunities cos of this LAW alr. lols....

LALALALALALALLALALALLA, i'm bored till crazy alr.

i guess i can only concentrate on preparing for the short missionary trip to Segamat to divert my attention le...to distract myself from the emoness, sadness, loneliness.

皑皑白雪映花红

for the readers with higher Chinese proficiency, =x
try reading it from right to left.. ;) it's cool! hahas...

hais, would it make a different? if i failed, i would rather it remains this way now, and i will work hard later this year!!! let's see how He leads. =)

“诗作”二首

2008-01-24T15:07:00.000+08:00

最近放假赋闲家中，在百无聊赖，且心中无限空洞的情况下，写下了一下两首诗。。。（算是诗吗？hmmm 应该算吧。anyway...)

《投名状》---于怡保经历一事有感
女人如衣服，兄弟如手足；
衣服可换兮，手足不可断；
若此衣服人人赞，兄弟手足连根断！

《衣》---读了某人之博客后有感
寻觅彩衣几多时，寻不得来负伤返。
心如白纸无颜色，方知天衣近眼前。
可惜天衣已属他，惟有另觅霓虹裳......
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哎呀，见笑见笑。
诗烂莫怪，此乃本人首次尝试，请各位读者看官见谅......
若不想再身心受创，就请知会本人一声，不要不好意思。
所谓：“身体发肤，受之父母”，就算只有一个投诉，我也会停止我的恶行，
不再危害人间。

special day, then come blog

2008-01-09T00:58:00.000+08:00

真的超笨，到现在，我还能对他有所期待吗？知道不该抱有任何希望，但是，却不由自主...

??

dunno...talking abt me?

rahhs(long time never use this "word" le, sighs. i try not to use it, cos i dowan to remind myself of the past.)....i dunno la.

anw, today i blog, firstly, it's because i'm now finally at jen's house!!! hahaha...and oso 2ndly, because i saw her blog.. sighs. so long le, i cant really forget...and...somehow, i hope for something to happen also, but, i guess, it's not gonna happen in the recent future...=/

there's hope there too? really? talking abt me is it?...i really wanna noe, really, should i ask her? sighs...how to say? how? i really dunno.

but, even if it is really talking abt me, and really cant control the feeling, there's an oak tree there le, she no longer needs me, rite?

sighs, wat's with me?...=(

anw, i shouldnt be sad ah!!!! now should be happy! can have a great time in Ipoh with my bros!

and, super busy lo, going back CO on this coming saturday again, anyone wanna go? if happens to read this, contact me ba..

k, enough for now, i really hope we can talk...

Rahhs. =/

ciao.

lalalalalalalla....happy new year...

2008-01-03T16:08:00.000+08:00

no mood to blog lehs, dunno why. oso nothing to blog, lols.

bored...it's starting to be bored...

argh...just cut hair, i think it's too short agn=.=...dad wants me to cut de, bleah. sian, haf to wait for it to grow long and thick agn. this time i'm not going to cut till march, even if i go barber within this period of time, i go trim onli, must trim onli A BIT. blah.

sian....today went to register for the driving course at shaolin a.k.a bunga raya lo...still dunno why in chinese, it's shaolin and in malay it's bunga raya=.=...dots

sigh sigh sigh~!!! super sian super sian!!!

HAHA! but...i haf nice show to watch!!!! yay~! HEROES! lol, i'm lag, but, it's super nice! haha. heard tt it's nice from erin, lol, now i realise why so many ppl like to watch, hoho.

hais....one post, write from afternoon till night havent fin...i think i'm really running out of vocabs to write things le...=( how to be teacher?!?!?!?!

anw, who wanna form band, can find me. oh tt's random=.=...anw...I'M SUPER BORED!!!!!!!!!!!

ok, shall end here, i'm super looking forward to going sg on sat and going ipoh to visit jen and alex next week.

ciao

WHEW~! super long nvr blog again

2007-12-29T14:25:00.000+08:00

lols, sorry ya, super long nvr update, now using my new laptop to anyhow type something...

oso nothing to type lehs...=.=

ok, it's super bored at home lo...finally, tml i'm going out with ws, fergen and pang...YAY!

ws ask me to bring some of my frens along=.=...dunno who to find..

k la, got nothing to blog le, i think i shall post later tonight, in my room, xD

finally, have my own room le, WOHOO~! muahahaha

hhehe, ciao.

P.S. sighs, confused sia.

long long long long long long long time never blog.

2007-12-13T13:04:00.000+08:00

ok, lot's of things have happened, since i last blog. (obvious...how would my life be if nothing happens since i last blogged???...=.=)

walao, super long story leh...lazy to tell, let's summarise.

ok, prom was ok...prefer the after-prom party. pics not with me, when upload? i dunno. com in msia crashed....now in jonathan yong's house, tonned a night, din really slp, haha. finally watched 200 pound beauty hohoho, super nice, the girl super chio, she looks like both vivian hsu and shu qi!!!! xD super pretty!!!!!!!!! gosh...

ok, then after prom, is my last church youth camp!!!!! it was GREAT...one of the best youth camps i've attended. my group emerged as 2nd! out of 6 groups. yay yay yay. nvr felt so satisfied. my group is GREAT, super great, so we won the "best group award", we are very united, and super HIGH. out of the 6 groups, my group enjoyed the camp the most, as according to the teachers, i LOVE my group...

hey, although i doubt she will see this, but yu wen, my dear vice group leader, you are being a great help, and you are very zhen1, you dun care wat other thinks, you are just you, no mask...continue this way, =) cos, almost everyone around us is wearing a mask...hais...so, just be yourself.=))...it's great to work with u in the camp. haha, u are still as cute. super cute.

long time no blog

2007-11-23T01:00:00.000+08:00

actually got lots of things for me to blog de, but dunno why, just dun feel like blogging.

18th nov
night at ECP is bloody, moody, and Mc D.

knocked down by ang moh..

wa super tired, dun feel like blogging le, ciao. go facebook see my pics la.

ATTENTION!!!! PERFORMANCE!!!!

2007-11-19T19:54:00.000+08:00

ATTENTION ATTENTION!!!!!!!!!!!!

my performance will be on 22nd and 23rd dec.

Date: 22nd dec 2007
Venue: Ngee Ann City
Time: 2030

Date: 23rd dec 2007
Venue: Paragon
Time: 2100

so pls come and support! lols, i'll be dancing, acting, and drumming. do come and support and laugh ur heart out! hahahaha...

and after my show i can go supper with u all, maybe, haha. ;P

tell me if u are coming!

无言~无奈~无题

2007-11-15T19:09:00.000+08:00

普通朋友--陶喆
等待
我随时随地在等待
做你感情上的依赖
我没有任何的疑问
这是爱
我猜
你早就想要说明白
我觉得自己好失败
从天堂掉落到深渊
多无奈
我愿意改变(what can i do?)
重新再来一遍(just give me change)
我无法只是普通朋友
感情已那么深
叫我怎么能收手
但你说
i only want to be your friend
做个朋友
我在
你心中只是just a friend
不是情人
我感激你对我这样的坦白
但我给你的爱暂时收不回来
so i
我不能只是be your friend
i just can't be your friend
no,no,no,
我不能只是做你的朋友
不能只是做普通朋友
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以前从来没有很认真地看这首歌的歌词。。。只是大概知道，可是现在，它也太太太太太太太太像我现在的心情了。。。

爱？哎。唉。。。

哈哈，真是的，总以为自己可以用“天涯何处无芳草，何必在乎一枝花？” 来安慰自己。

是啊，总以为。

曾说过：“有什么不开心的可以找我，我会听你倾诉的哦。” 可现在，怎么找？再说下去，结果，应该还是一样。不，可能再说下去，结果会更糟吧，只会使_更困扰。。。

天涯何处无芳草，何必在乎一枝花？

我就是在乎，你怎样？我就是要等，就算知道现在自己一点机会也没有，我也要等到有机会的那一天、那一刻。

笑吧，看了之后，要笑的就笑个够，就像以前我被笑一样。大家一起笑吧。

我不知道，要怎样，道别。

YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2007-11-13T12:17:00.000+08:00

left TWO doodling papers!!!!!!!!!!!!!! both paper 1!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle doodle

lols, i siao alr, ciao! go eat lunch le!

HAHA!

2007-11-09T00:54:00.000+08:00

finally! i've bought myself a cap! WHEE~!

check it out:

nice??? nice???? hahahaha

went Bugis with Jen and xian, =.=stupid, then they dowan to go play basketball...HELL...FINE, haha

and my roommate say i can go shoot advertisement when i wear the jacket and the new cap, v hip hop look hahaha. sorry, i'm not narcissistic hahahaha

ciao!

holiday here i come!~!!!!!!!!!!!!!

WO~WEE~~~~~~~!!!!

2007-11-07T00:12:00.000+08:00

maths was AWESOME....

i hope my result come out will be AWESOME too!

went to watch THE GAME PLAN =D with..

yup yup

SUPER NICE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! five BIG BIG STARS!!!

hahahahahahahahahhahahahahahahahahah

it was a nice outing.

must rmb all the things i've told u! i mean it!

hais...

时间不多了。。。=/

jia you jia you everyone! for ppl taking the same combi with me, only THREE more papers!!!!

GO GO GO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

HOHOHO! 6 down, 4 to go!

2007-11-05T18:21:00.000+08:00

yay yay yay yay

although not all my papers are WELL DONE...

but...

i'm halfway thru this S*** alr!!!!!!!!!!! wooooooooweeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!~

oh my gosh...i cant imagine wat will i become without school, it would be SOOOOO boring sia...and i think i would experience the worst pressure unloading EVER in my 18 years of life...

WOO!!!!! 1st birthdae in m'sia next year after secondary school!!!!!!!!!! this is gonna be soooooooo exciting. but i think i'll be happier celebrating my bdae here in SG....with all my frens...hais.

hahahaha, anw. 6 down, 4 to go!!!!!

chem was OK bah...not very good, argh. have to buck up my organic chem for PAPER 2!!!!!!!!!

now m hoping that other JCs ppl will 垫底 for me! LOLs! pls pls pls....我要靠你们了!!!!

lols, super bad.

BLAH! back to practising my H2 Maths paper2 le! ciao!

xD

whee whee~!!!!!!! taiwan here i come!!!!!!!!!! church camp here i come!!!!!!!!! celebratin christmas @ orchard here i come!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hahaha, quote of the day: it is for me to know, for you to guess; for me to tell you if i want to and for you to find out if you want to. LOL, i noe it's crappy, but it's said by me! do i have to say more?? LOL.

ok ok getting crappy le.

BYE la.

BLEAH! i want a _ _ LA! BOOOOOOO

1 down, 10 to go...

2007-10-29T21:47:00.000+08:00

WHOOSH A~!

=.=...actually, only finished one paper...not even one subject..

but,

CAN YOU BELIEVE IT?!?!?! IT'S A LEVELS LE!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ARGH!!!!!!

it's physics tml!!!! i want A!!!!!

so i have to study now le=.=...wasted lots of time!!!!!!!!!

CIAO!

wahahahaha.

2007-10-20T00:17:00.000+08:00

sian sian sian, kinda wasted my day again....rahhs.

anw, stomachache now lehs....argh...

HEY THINGS! START TO GET ONTO THE RIGHT TRACK LA! dun make ppl sad and emo and angry and cry le! ='(

argh...really pain sia, stomach.

tired tired...

没有太多时间看你了！=( 忍耐一下，常常让我盯着你看吧！>.<